please fuckin kill me

[breatheinsmoke]

okay so dante is no longer talking to me because i made a mistake of believing what my friend was telling me...he was supposed to come and stay out here for a week and then my friend who lives in the porto...he told me some crock of shit about the hotel and i called the day before and then dante didnt come....so somehow im the one who fucked up and im the one who shouldnt be talked to...waht the fuck??? oh yea...but its ok because im used to be the fuck up...the one that does everything wrong....yup thats me! the fuck up!!!!!!! well to top this off...abraham is mad at me because he wants to hook up andi said not unless we were dating because i 1) jsut met him, 2) hes alright , and 3) i dont want to be considered a ho and i probably wouldnt do anythign with him anyway.......but hes mad at me now too....the only thing going alright is the fact that i get my braces off in 5 days!!!!!!!!! yay for me!!!!!!!! at least i can look somewhat better....? well im feeling very very shitty about myself...so im going to go back to drawing my gothic alice in wonderland....shes actually turning out to be pretty hot...id screw her......

........burn me alive with a single ciagrette...watch the flames surround my body...and watch me suffer