Let them fall where they may...
Update time, I suppose. It's almost September of the year 2011. I'm about to move out of the house I've been staying in since March of 2010. I'll be moving with my current room mates Colton and Andy. Hopefully things work out well. I sort of wanted to move back into Greenville, but oh well. This will just have to do for the next year. Mike is moving back in with his parents but I'm sure we'll see plenty of him around. He's dicussing moving to Charlotte with Austin sometime next year. Who knows if that'll happen but if so, good for them. I want to get out of Greenville at some point. I hear Kenzie and Michael will be moving there as well. Good for them. Glad to see everyone moving on to bigger and better things. Sort of makes me want to take off somewhere and not look back.
I hung out with my friend-zoned friend while in Florida for summer break. I had a great time while down there. It took me a little while to warm up to her as I sort of didn't want to hang out at first but things were a lot of fun. I sort of kissed her a few times while I was drunk. She didn't reject it and seemed to be okay with it so I guess all is well. Can't really complain about that. Nothing serious will come from it but that's okay. Friends can have some fun too, I guess. Not sure if I'll try it again next time. Time will tell. Hopefully I'll get to go visit again for Halloween this year. I like it down there. Part of me wishes I could pack up and stay there for a while but that's highly unlikely. Sometimes i worry about Chris. I hope he's doing alright. Mike's girlfriend keeps wanting to set me up with some of her friends but, I dunno. I hate when other people want to set me up with someone they think I'll like. Typically, what I like and what they think I like are two separate things. I appreciate the notion, though. I don't really think I'm looking for anything that serious right now, anyway.
School is back in session. I'm partially unamused. I don't know what it is but I always get demotivated for school after starting a new major. Sometimes I'm not really sure I even want to be enrolled anymore. I sort of want to just find a full-time job over minimum wage and earn some real money for a while instead of part-time pizza bullshit. I don't even know if I want to do web design/development anymore. I'm so rusty with all of it and when I try to produce something it just seems too labored and unnatural. Maybe I just don't have that talent anymore. All the new technology (HTML5, CSS3, etc.) and standards are a mystery to me. I'm starting to feel like that hobby or portion of my life is over and I'll probably never get the spark for it back. I dunno. I'm going to try this semester out and if I bomb, I'll probably just suck it up and find a real job. I hate the thought of 40+ hours a week and having a normal, boring schedule. Only off on the weekends, no time at all in the afternoon when you get home. I just want to live life and not spend 2/3 of it being a workhorse just to pay my way out of debt. I want to travel when I want or do things sporradically. I guess I'm apprehensive about growing up and losing freedom, but that's how the real world is, unfortunately.
I have a new car. My old one died -- R.I.P. Honda Accord :( That thing was a staple of my childhood. Had it for seven years, I believe. She will be missed. Now I drive a 2010 Cobalt LS that my mom pays for. Sort of makes me feel bad. She really deserves that car. I haven't earned it. I haven't earned any of the help she's given me over the years. /sigh I hope I can pay her back one day. I know she really wants me to graduate college with anything at all but I don't know if I'm up for it anymore. I've lost so much momentum and time regarding school that I don't even know what to do anymore. My whole outook on the situation is sort of bleak. Gotta figure something out.
Aside from all the stress, things are relatively fine. I'll be glad to move into the new place and get settled. More to come later, hopefully.
I hung out with my friend-zoned friend while in Florida for summer break. I had a great time while down there. It took me a little while to warm up to her as I sort of didn't want to hang out at first but things were a lot of fun. I sort of kissed her a few times while I was drunk. She didn't reject it and seemed to be okay with it so I guess all is well. Can't really complain about that. Nothing serious will come from it but that's okay. Friends can have some fun too, I guess. Not sure if I'll try it again next time. Time will tell. Hopefully I'll get to go visit again for Halloween this year. I like it down there. Part of me wishes I could pack up and stay there for a while but that's highly unlikely. Sometimes i worry about Chris. I hope he's doing alright. Mike's girlfriend keeps wanting to set me up with some of her friends but, I dunno. I hate when other people want to set me up with someone they think I'll like. Typically, what I like and what they think I like are two separate things. I appreciate the notion, though. I don't really think I'm looking for anything that serious right now, anyway.
School is back in session. I'm partially unamused. I don't know what it is but I always get demotivated for school after starting a new major. Sometimes I'm not really sure I even want to be enrolled anymore. I sort of want to just find a full-time job over minimum wage and earn some real money for a while instead of part-time pizza bullshit. I don't even know if I want to do web design/development anymore. I'm so rusty with all of it and when I try to produce something it just seems too labored and unnatural. Maybe I just don't have that talent anymore. All the new technology (HTML5, CSS3, etc.) and standards are a mystery to me. I'm starting to feel like that hobby or portion of my life is over and I'll probably never get the spark for it back. I dunno. I'm going to try this semester out and if I bomb, I'll probably just suck it up and find a real job. I hate the thought of 40+ hours a week and having a normal, boring schedule. Only off on the weekends, no time at all in the afternoon when you get home. I just want to live life and not spend 2/3 of it being a workhorse just to pay my way out of debt. I want to travel when I want or do things sporradically. I guess I'm apprehensive about growing up and losing freedom, but that's how the real world is, unfortunately.
I have a new car. My old one died -- R.I.P. Honda Accord :( That thing was a staple of my childhood. Had it for seven years, I believe. She will be missed. Now I drive a 2010 Cobalt LS that my mom pays for. Sort of makes me feel bad. She really deserves that car. I haven't earned it. I haven't earned any of the help she's given me over the years. /sigh I hope I can pay her back one day. I know she really wants me to graduate college with anything at all but I don't know if I'm up for it anymore. I've lost so much momentum and time regarding school that I don't even know what to do anymore. My whole outook on the situation is sort of bleak. Gotta figure something out.
Aside from all the stress, things are relatively fine. I'll be glad to move into the new place and get settled. More to come later, hopefully.