If I understood then I would be happy to explain...
Sometimes I have a tendency to do things that I say I'm not going to do. Remember that girl I mentioned back in March? Something something not going to be in the friend-zone? Oops. I didn't have much intention to remain in contact with her while I was temporarily bummed out but somehow we managed to strike up conversations and keep light contact. That "light contact" extended to semi-regular contact. It's nowhere near the level previous to visiting her last but I was surprised to hear from her as much as I did. I'm pretty sure we've flirted some. She mentioned once that she "needs a man." She also said that she might "rape me" and that I should be alert, in a joking tone of course. When she found out that I'm going down to visit in Florida during the summer she got excited and would nag me occasionally about when and if I bought tickets yet. She mentions all these activities we can do, and hang out, etc. She asked if I wanted to get drunk with her again (minus the crazy fight shit someone got me into last time I visited.) She even asked once how I felt about friends with benefits. Hint hint, right? Sounds pretty favorable, right? Buzz! I can't fucking tell with this girl. I can't read her at all like most of the girls I've met. I just get sucked into being friendly with her. Should I try to make a move if I do see her while I'm down? Would she be offended or would I make it weird? Should I say fuck it and go for something? I'm fine with making out or whatever happens if she agrees. I don't mind being friends with benefits. I understand entirely that there's no relationship possibility and I'm okay with that as well. I can feel the essence of the friend-zone all around me. Exhibit "A": she mentioned these two guys she's been talking to lately and how she sort of hit it off with both of them but they are best friends. So of course she asks me for advice. She decides that she should probably just stop talking to both of them since one lives 3 hours away and the other lives in Texas (but "wants to move back to Florida.") She doesn't want to corrupt their friendship. I usually only hear from her randomly or when she's bored/lonely. I guess that's okay, though. I've done the same to other people. Classic friend-zone. Textbook. I guess I'm okay with hearing that stuff, I suppose it doesn't really matter anyway. I'm definitely attracted to her and I think she's pretty awesome so I wouldn't mind *cough* getting to know her better *cough*. My plan is to just go down and visit and not give a fuck. I'll chat-up and hit on (in the classiest of ways) every girl I meet while visiting. If she happens to go along with it, I guess I'll have to make some decision on the spot. Maybe I shouldn't even see her at all and save face? She'd probably be somewhat upset if I avoided her but it's not like it really matters that much in the long-run. I guess we'll find out.