suddenly feeling old.
i see all my friends doing great things. they're all extremely smart and really talented. they have awesome personality and wit.
it makes me wonder where i fit into it all. why would they choose to befriend me? i don't understand.
blah. the blues got me down again.
i guess my main reason for being so blue is because i'm missing out on all their lives. these great things are all happening and i'm stuck in the same rut day after day. working a crap job and barely getting by. sitting on the couch day after day.
they all live so far away.
i would get out and do something about it, but what? i've never done well making friends on my own. i've always relied on someone i know.
i think that's my problem. i've always relied on someone else.
but why?
ugh. i hate my brain sometimes.
it makes me wonder where i fit into it all. why would they choose to befriend me? i don't understand.
blah. the blues got me down again.
i guess my main reason for being so blue is because i'm missing out on all their lives. these great things are all happening and i'm stuck in the same rut day after day. working a crap job and barely getting by. sitting on the couch day after day.
they all live so far away.
i would get out and do something about it, but what? i've never done well making friends on my own. i've always relied on someone i know.
i think that's my problem. i've always relied on someone else.
but why?
ugh. i hate my brain sometimes.