so it goes...
i guess i kinda wanted a place to say all the things i was feeling. i've had livejournals before but never really wrote in them much. well, things have been incredibly overwhelming lately... but i guess that's just the way it goes. i have been doing finals all this week at good ole berklee college of music. it completely sucks, but i love it here so much that i'm not gonna let myself stress all about it. i'm just not used to dealing with some of the people that i have had to deal with here. actually, i don't think i should ever have to "deal" with people, but that's what it's been like. i mean, thank god for some of the people here, who have completely saved me in more ways than one. i just kinda lost track of who i was when i got here. i kinda forgot what was important to me, not meaning like family and friends... i could never forget that obviously. but, i stopped being what i took so long to become. i put up with a lot of shit here, and thats not like me. i let myself me easily manipulated... and that is definitely not like me. so, i was on the phone with matt the other night, after telling him about all the shit that has gone on here at school, and he kinda kicked my ass back into place and slapped me in the face with a reality check. its about fucking time someone did that. and i needed it so bad. so i stopped all the games and the bullshit.. and i'm done putting up with all the shit that has been going on. and i feel soooo much better.