i thought i meant something to him.
i thought i did, but i guess i was wrong. part of me still believes he cares, but i know he doesn't. bobby, my bobby, took his ex back today after 5 months of being broken up. fine, whatever, i can deal. ok i can't but i'm going to try my hardest to believe i can. yea. she pulled that whole "i'm going to kill myself" deal and he fell for it. stupid stupid boy. now all of those things we were planning together just totally died. i guess all those things he said, he didn't mean. screw him. i'll be ok....soon.
at least i still have my ryan. he's a wicked cool kid. he means a lot to me, but more in a frienship way. however, every time i talk to him on the phone, i feel more special. i love the way he makes me feel. his constant sarcasm is soooooo loveable. that's him. he's so adorable. i love him. <3