i am colorblind, coffee black and egg white...
i don`t know why i even try. i make an effort to get to know my so-called "friends" better, but still i am ignored and forgotten. didn`t they understand that i did it for them? i always end up being the person who is in the background even though i am supposed to be the host, the person they should thank for being where they are. i just wanted to lock myself in a closet and never come out again. i am not having any freaking parties anymore. those idiots would just mess it up. they make me feel like sh*t sometimes. i`m not going to go into this further. it`s not worth it.
thank god for you van. and you ed.
something was up with *paul yesterday. he kept avoiding me, excluding the time he kept asking for chocolate covered strawberries. is this me? driving people away? i mean, sure i don`t always talk, am not a conversation starter sometimes, but do i always have to make an effort? why can`t they? it`s like if i don`t do something they forget all about me.
i had a chance to go to cali this summer, but i can`t go. van, jam, molly, gris, kamil, rj, raul and the whole rondalla group invited me. they would be there for 10 days. ahhhh, i want to go to california. bring me something back. i am definitely going next summer or some other holiday break.
yay, my piano teacher got me a present yesterday for my soiree. it was 32 beethoven sonanta collection piano books. 3 to be exact. i figured it was really expensive b/c it was in german or austrian or something. even though i came home like 2 in the morning i started learning some of the pieces. i think i`m going to dedicate myself to piano more. i`m going to dedicate more time to guitar too. and kind of think of it, skateboarding. ha, my sister got a skateboard last sunday. we were watching MADE the day before. yeah, that`s it. i`ll expand my horizons. new meaning to multi-talented. woot.
thank god for you van. and you ed.
something was up with *paul yesterday. he kept avoiding me, excluding the time he kept asking for chocolate covered strawberries. is this me? driving people away? i mean, sure i don`t always talk, am not a conversation starter sometimes, but do i always have to make an effort? why can`t they? it`s like if i don`t do something they forget all about me.
i had a chance to go to cali this summer, but i can`t go. van, jam, molly, gris, kamil, rj, raul and the whole rondalla group invited me. they would be there for 10 days. ahhhh, i want to go to california. bring me something back. i am definitely going next summer or some other holiday break.
yay, my piano teacher got me a present yesterday for my soiree. it was 32 beethoven sonanta collection piano books. 3 to be exact. i figured it was really expensive b/c it was in german or austrian or something. even though i came home like 2 in the morning i started learning some of the pieces. i think i`m going to dedicate myself to piano more. i`m going to dedicate more time to guitar too. and kind of think of it, skateboarding. ha, my sister got a skateboard last sunday. we were watching MADE the day before. yeah, that`s it. i`ll expand my horizons. new meaning to multi-talented. woot.