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this year is half over and it is most definitely time for me to change. Lately i have been so unhappy with myself that its almost unbearably overwhelming. I cannot sit still and there is a constant need for me to be surrounded by my unsettling past that i have been so tempted to fall back into. I really thought i was getting past these temptations and trivial habits.
i feel dead. i feel numb. utterly unconscious to the world around me. Folding myself in. burning the senses. Completely depressed by the world and the choices i make or can't seem to make to change it.
Where do We come from? Where are We going?
I am trying though. For me this time. Only me. In the most selfless way possible i guess. I've decided to change my major after this next semester to (most likely) Environmental economics and policy/sciences. It's drastic, but totally worth it. i love art history and will continue with it, but in different outlets. i.e. ones that don't require me to depend on a BFA for financial support.
in other news.
my birthday is coming up.
and i really would like all my friends to come together and just hug. Please. even if i don't see you on my birthday. DO something for someone else. HUG them KISS them. i want one massive group HUG!
so lets make it a point. comprende?
i leave tomorrow for lovely Wisconsin for petes sake. Hopefully I will come back more at peace with myself eh? i will see you bitches on the 6th.
i feel dead. i feel numb. utterly unconscious to the world around me. Folding myself in. burning the senses. Completely depressed by the world and the choices i make or can't seem to make to change it.
Where do We come from? Where are We going?
I am trying though. For me this time. Only me. In the most selfless way possible i guess. I've decided to change my major after this next semester to (most likely) Environmental economics and policy/sciences. It's drastic, but totally worth it. i love art history and will continue with it, but in different outlets. i.e. ones that don't require me to depend on a BFA for financial support.
in other news.
my birthday is coming up.
and i really would like all my friends to come together and just hug. Please. even if i don't see you on my birthday. DO something for someone else. HUG them KISS them. i want one massive group HUG!
so lets make it a point. comprende?
i leave tomorrow for lovely Wisconsin for petes sake. Hopefully I will come back more at peace with myself eh? i will see you bitches on the 6th.