Change alone is eternal, perpetual, immortal.
A little less than 24 hours from now, I'll have arrived at Winthrop University Hospital.
A little less than 27 hours from now, I'll have begun to've been operated on.
A little less than 30 hours from now, I'll be a totally different person and yet the same.
This journey begun around 4 years ago. To have finally reached the apex... well, it's just a mess of emotions. To know that, with G-d's help, everything will conclude sometime in the middle of next year... once again the mess of emotions.
I joke about "Yan Mk II" and the "new Yan" openly but the reality of the situation is more depressing. I'm scared of change this drastic. I knew there was no going back as of 2 years ago when the actual physical process began but I'll always wonder what it would've been like had I declined.
No regrets.
A little less than 27 hours from now, I'll have begun to've been operated on.
A little less than 30 hours from now, I'll be a totally different person and yet the same.
This journey begun around 4 years ago. To have finally reached the apex... well, it's just a mess of emotions. To know that, with G-d's help, everything will conclude sometime in the middle of next year... once again the mess of emotions.
I joke about "Yan Mk II" and the "new Yan" openly but the reality of the situation is more depressing. I'm scared of change this drastic. I knew there was no going back as of 2 years ago when the actual physical process began but I'll always wonder what it would've been like had I declined.
No regrets.