To Those in the Know, filtered away from Kali

[breaks_the_fall]

Kali's gone to Rome. That damn angel in her head fought the Templar for years and now she has my wife convinced she needs to go back there

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[whichdoctor]

Oh my goodness.

I know what it is to have warring personalities inside, to have memories and urges and quests not your own. This can't be easy for Kali. She wouldn't leave you, and the babies, and her friends without a very strong reason. I understand that doesn't make it any easier for anyone. Remember though, she's probably even stronger than an average person, now. Certainly in terms of endurance. Still, I'm sure Ryn would be willing to follow and look out for her, if you want that.

As for who Kali is... she's still there. Nothing that she was has been taken away. Another life has been added to her body, and that's something everyone needs to learn to live with. But she chose Kali for a reason. They must have things in common. With time, perhaps you will find things about the angel you can appreciate, too.

[breaks_the_fall]

I know Kali wouldn't, but how much of her is really her anymore. Is there anything in there of my wife anymore? She's not the same, David. She's just not the same. Stronger, yeah. More determined, yeah, which frankly she had no trouble with before. It's not just that I am worried about her, though I am.

I miss my wife. Even when she was here I missed her. I don't...I don't know if I can learn to live with it, David. I just don't. I married Kali, not Lenore. I really dislike Leonore.

[whichdoctor]

Kali is there. I don't think Lenore would cause Kali to fade away. If she became an angelic spirit, it's highly unlikely that she would intentionally do something harmful. She may not realise how much pain she's causing. Or perhaps she thinks it's worth it, in order to execute whatever plan she has to fight the Templar.

I can see this is about more than her going to fight the Templar, though. When someone changes like that, it does mean rebuilding relationships. Accommodating those changes, and that's not easy. All I can say is that the woman you married is still there, she just has access to different knowledge and perspectives. It's natural for that to change someone, but I believe the woman you love is still well and truly there. I know how difficult it is, though, and I'll be there for both of you in every way I can. I can only imagine how much harder it must be when you don't even like Lenore. It's a horrible situation to find oneself in.

[breaks_the_fall]

Well I don't think it's bloody worth it.

I don't know if I can do this, David. I don't know if I can be with someone I... I just don't know.

[whichdoctor]

You don't need to know yet. Emotions are still running high. For now, the best thing you can probably do is talk to Kali when she comes back. Hopefully it'll be much less likely to turn into a fight without some angelic mission at stake. I know the waiting will be more than frustrating, but I think you need to at least talk this through properly before anything else.

[breaks_the_fall]

Argh, we're supposed to be having a baby not...Kali running around like a crazy person while I question whether our marriage was a mistake or not.

Crap, what if she's pregnant and doesn't know?!

[whichdoctor]

If Kali is pregnant, I'm sure not even Lenore could keep her in Rome when she finds out. She wouldn't jeopardise her baby. I'm sure that, at least, is something you won't have to worry about.

[breaks_the_fall]

I'm worrying myself into a panic attack.

[whichdoctor]

Do you want me to come over there tonight, Ethan? I can help out, and talk with you more about everything that's going on, if you like.

[breaks_the_fall]

Okay.