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It kills me the way that we are now.
How did we get to this?
Most days I'm completely fine.
But that's when I hardly see you.
There's a reason I make sure to never see you.
Every time it's just the two of us, it rules.
We can talk, we can be ourselves.
But every time there's even one other person there you hardly acknowledge me.
I don't know what's up.
Maybe it's all the old happy pictures of us I've been seeing too much of.
Or the fact that we will stay the night at the same place and you'll sleep on the couch while I sleep between two of your best friends on mattresses.
Or even the away messages talking about other girls.
It's all of it.
I know this is for the best, and it was something that needed to happen.
But it blows my mind and completely breaks my heart that we were so so in love and you thought the world of me.
And now, well look how we are.
It makes me so scared to ever fall in love again.
I miss you so much.
How did we get to this?
Most days I'm completely fine.
But that's when I hardly see you.
There's a reason I make sure to never see you.
Every time it's just the two of us, it rules.
We can talk, we can be ourselves.
But every time there's even one other person there you hardly acknowledge me.
I don't know what's up.
Maybe it's all the old happy pictures of us I've been seeing too much of.
Or the fact that we will stay the night at the same place and you'll sleep on the couch while I sleep between two of your best friends on mattresses.
Or even the away messages talking about other girls.
It's all of it.
I know this is for the best, and it was something that needed to happen.
But it blows my mind and completely breaks my heart that we were so so in love and you thought the world of me.
And now, well look how we are.
It makes me so scared to ever fall in love again.
I miss you so much.