my mind is wandering. i have soooo much to say. but its not coming out now..
ok. there has been so much that ive wanted to just write out here, but i just haven't had the time or will to do so.
ive meant to write about the other night at jos, my party and his own and the summer in general.
because all of those nights were really fucking amazing.
its been so hectic in my head. like a thunderstorm. its always raining.
i fall in and out of these moods. these feelings of being somewhere strange.
half of this shit seems imaginary.
half of me is expecting to go home soon.
like its a vacation or something.
but yea.. yesterday was so fucking hard.
the day that i anticipated for about 11 months.
the day i thought about when i was in junior high.
when you think about something for so long, you never actually expect it to hit you.
but yea.. the fingers slipped, and tears and i dont know.
silly kids.
as i was trying to get at before..
im too shy for this.
everyone here looks the same.
my roomate is yet to be seen..
i dont know if he speaks english.
tongiht i hung out with jo at the college of pharmacy.
met some awesome kids there.
really nice and stuff..
but i felt bad for not being at my own school.
this is all gonna take time. and i dont even know what im trying to say.
i miss a lot of things right now.. and thats just the way its supposed to be.
im supposed to grow.
im like a plant motherfucker.
ball up and cry.
dont you feel like you could die.
wash it away.
wish alcohol tonight.
<3 i'd fucking kill for your arms tonight.
ive meant to write about the other night at jos, my party and his own and the summer in general.
because all of those nights were really fucking amazing.
its been so hectic in my head. like a thunderstorm. its always raining.
i fall in and out of these moods. these feelings of being somewhere strange.
half of this shit seems imaginary.
half of me is expecting to go home soon.
like its a vacation or something.
but yea.. yesterday was so fucking hard.
the day that i anticipated for about 11 months.
the day i thought about when i was in junior high.
when you think about something for so long, you never actually expect it to hit you.
but yea.. the fingers slipped, and tears and i dont know.
silly kids.
as i was trying to get at before..
im too shy for this.
everyone here looks the same.
my roomate is yet to be seen..
i dont know if he speaks english.
tongiht i hung out with jo at the college of pharmacy.
met some awesome kids there.
really nice and stuff..
but i felt bad for not being at my own school.
this is all gonna take time. and i dont even know what im trying to say.
i miss a lot of things right now.. and thats just the way its supposed to be.
im supposed to grow.
im like a plant motherfucker.
ball up and cry.
dont you feel like you could die.
wash it away.
wish alcohol tonight.
<3 i'd fucking kill for your arms tonight.