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I was watching Pretty in Pink, and started thinking. i thought of him, oh god how i've thought of him. and his smile..ahh his smile. its so gorgeous and it makes me weak at my knees. like, you know how those 80's movies and the girls always get the guys? real life isnt like that, its a scam. i think i'm giving up on love, anything that has to do w/ love. but i adore him so much. i could never tell him though. he has me believing that he likes me but i dont know if he's for real, or its just a joke. but i dont want to say anything. i dont want to risk getting shot down, rejected. i wish love was tangible, then i could give it to him. but i dont want to give away my heart just yet, it got shattered into pieces last time someone got a hold of it. i'd hate to get infatuated, really i would. i dont want to be the one getting hurt. i want to tell him so bad how i feel, but i tried that already and it just didnt come out right. i thought of it today, and just started crying. then i went to the fridge and realized we're out of chocolate w/ whiskey in it, and started crying. because i realized its another thing i just cant have. True love only exists in 80's movies. It's amazing how one thing triggers everything <|3