thinking bad thoughts is good for you.

[breakingthemold]

I've been thinking a lot lately about the way I treat people. In many ways I realized I have hurt people both intentionally and unintentionally. But I think so much of it stems from my need to keep my guard up. People who think they know the real me, may be completely wrong. And I like it that way. That's the bitch in me. But I'm a bitch usually as a product of the situation. I hate when people assume things about me. I'm much more complex than the clothes I wear, my major, the music I listen to, my career choice. It's not my fault that you are intimidated by me. I still think about you more than I should. I blame too much on you and that's not fair. It was my fault for falling into your trap. But I've escaped and for good. You taught me so many things about myself. You'll never know the effect you've had on me. I know that I hurt you. I just now know that I was right for making that choice. The fact that you don't even want to be friends says a lot about how you really felt about me.

Leaving work early and laying in bed with you all day watching lame television made my week. The things you said to me made my summer.

I don't think I'm going to take the MCAT again.

Things are great.