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i dont know what the point of writing this entry is. I guess it's been a week or so and even though nothing special has been going on, I feel the need to keep the lj somewhat updated.
I don't think I'm really ready to reflect about the summer, thus far. It has been bizarre and hopefully will continue to be so. I have a lot that I would like to bitch about, but I've recently realised that my bitching and whining is negatively productive. I had no idea how much my attitude could actually influence the attitude of an entire group. Actually, I was completely aware of that, but I have somewhat abused that position this summer and I'm working on it. Really, I am. I like some of the people here a whole lot, but I cannot stand some of the others. And that presents a problem when we evidently have to do EVERYFUCKINGTHING together, those nerd-ass bitches. Amar and I are on the brink of resolving our differences or at least him accepting some choices I've made, and once we get all of that squared away, things will be better for the group. When we're on our A-game there is nothing but happiness in the family. So we're going to get that completed this weekend hopefully. I might hang out with my new friend from Chesterfield that works in my lab this weekend. I guess we'll see.
I am very thankful that I can go home or make my friends come and see me on the weekends to break up the monotony that is summer research. I've been home a few times, but that doesn't quite feel right anymore. And I wish I could explain it better, but I guess getting blown off by your best friend is enough to make you not want to go home much. Home also doesnt feel the same without a few key players, so it's kinda sad to hang out there without them, ie COME HOME SARAH WIDGEON. In other news, I have had some interesting visitors so far. Alex Cornett and I had a really great dinner and some fantastic conversation when he came into town. And Yahweh is coming tonight for dinner, etc. When you hang around science nerds all day long, you really begin to miss the people who add different elements to your life. I am SO tired of nerdy biology jokes. I'd much rather shoot the shit while listening to some good music. I forget to appreciate that sometimes, but never again. If anything this summer, I've learned that I'm not going to be able to handle med school unlessI have friends who are outside of that world. I'm going to need an escape. I need to stop living for the weekends though.
I really miss the furman kids, almost inexplicably. For some reason this summer is different than others in the past. I think we really have become dependent on each other in a deeper way. We still have our other friendships, but there are some things that I can only talk about with you guys. And I am so happy about that. Just know that I miss you alot.
Had what will probably be considered my first date with DS yesterday. It went really well. He's way too cute for his own good. But our little "thing" has had pretty bad ramifications within the nerd group. But I'm thinking that they will be over it soon enough. I just wish he didn't live in Nashville. Oh lord, what am I saying? I cannot start thinking that seriously about this right now.
Well i'm going to go have a weekend now.
I don't think I'm really ready to reflect about the summer, thus far. It has been bizarre and hopefully will continue to be so. I have a lot that I would like to bitch about, but I've recently realised that my bitching and whining is negatively productive. I had no idea how much my attitude could actually influence the attitude of an entire group. Actually, I was completely aware of that, but I have somewhat abused that position this summer and I'm working on it. Really, I am. I like some of the people here a whole lot, but I cannot stand some of the others. And that presents a problem when we evidently have to do EVERYFUCKINGTHING together, those nerd-ass bitches. Amar and I are on the brink of resolving our differences or at least him accepting some choices I've made, and once we get all of that squared away, things will be better for the group. When we're on our A-game there is nothing but happiness in the family. So we're going to get that completed this weekend hopefully. I might hang out with my new friend from Chesterfield that works in my lab this weekend. I guess we'll see.
I am very thankful that I can go home or make my friends come and see me on the weekends to break up the monotony that is summer research. I've been home a few times, but that doesn't quite feel right anymore. And I wish I could explain it better, but I guess getting blown off by your best friend is enough to make you not want to go home much. Home also doesnt feel the same without a few key players, so it's kinda sad to hang out there without them, ie COME HOME SARAH WIDGEON. In other news, I have had some interesting visitors so far. Alex Cornett and I had a really great dinner and some fantastic conversation when he came into town. And Yahweh is coming tonight for dinner, etc. When you hang around science nerds all day long, you really begin to miss the people who add different elements to your life. I am SO tired of nerdy biology jokes. I'd much rather shoot the shit while listening to some good music. I forget to appreciate that sometimes, but never again. If anything this summer, I've learned that I'm not going to be able to handle med school unlessI have friends who are outside of that world. I'm going to need an escape. I need to stop living for the weekends though.
I really miss the furman kids, almost inexplicably. For some reason this summer is different than others in the past. I think we really have become dependent on each other in a deeper way. We still have our other friendships, but there are some things that I can only talk about with you guys. And I am so happy about that. Just know that I miss you alot.
Had what will probably be considered my first date with DS yesterday. It went really well. He's way too cute for his own good. But our little "thing" has had pretty bad ramifications within the nerd group. But I'm thinking that they will be over it soon enough. I just wish he didn't live in Nashville. Oh lord, what am I saying? I cannot start thinking that seriously about this right now.
Well i'm going to go have a weekend now.