all the things you said, running through my head
It feels like it has been one long, emotional, rollercoaster ride of a weekend. I am exhausted and I still have to go home and start packing all my things. I hope everything starts to look up when I move. I am also applying for another job position. I hope everyone is doing well and I hope that there is happiness and love in everyone's life. I also hope that everyone has the joy of being with the one that they truly love and most importantly be loved in return.
I found out this past weekend what "be loved in return" actually meant. It was like a light at the end of my tunnel and I could finally see and be seen. I don't know what would have happened if my "light" was not with me this weekend. Just know that I would never purposly hurt anyone, I just want everyone to be happy. I need to start doing what I promised someone. I need to get my shit together, all of it. Things are starting to unravel in my arms and in my mind. I can not control everything and it is starting to annoy me. ughhhh!! I just... I just.... want to be happy and not have a drug induced happiness. I am missing something and I can not put my finger on it. I can not wait until school starts and I can not wait until everything seems to calm down......all I need to do is just......breathe.
i need help.
I found out this past weekend what "be loved in return" actually meant. It was like a light at the end of my tunnel and I could finally see and be seen. I don't know what would have happened if my "light" was not with me this weekend. Just know that I would never purposly hurt anyone, I just want everyone to be happy. I need to start doing what I promised someone. I need to get my shit together, all of it. Things are starting to unravel in my arms and in my mind. I can not control everything and it is starting to annoy me. ughhhh!! I just... I just.... want to be happy and not have a drug induced happiness. I am missing something and I can not put my finger on it. I can not wait until school starts and I can not wait until everything seems to calm down......all I need to do is just......breathe.
i need help.