truth of a heart

[breakingbleu]

The nights were so warm with the truthful words you spoke to me
Now the nights are so cold with the lies you threw on me
 lies lies lies, what did i do to deserve you to be so untrue
i told you everything, in the truth of my heart
but to tell you how much you hurt me i dont know where to start
you tell me one thing but i know the other
but

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rememberance

[anonymous]

i know i have hurt you and i'm sorry, but you don't have to run it into the ground. nothing i do seems right, but i will do everything i can to change that, to change us and make us right like we use to be. i know you said this one was not just about me, but it is. it's cool, i understand, and i know you don't hate, but still things just don't feel right. the pit in my stomach is growing and will not go away until things are set right between us. my trip to paradise will not be paradise at all, but more like torture since i will be without for a month. i can't stand the thought of us leaving like this. leaving unsettled. i know i brought this on myself, but please when you think about me, think of me like you use to. think of me like how you did when you wrote "you" or gave me the card, or wrote in my yearbook. remember the words you said to me and how i made you feel, and how we made each other feel. remember cloud nine and longing to dance in the rain. remember the park and zoo and the mall, but please most of all; remember me while i whipped your tears of joy off your cheek. remember that exact feeling you had, the feeling of overwhelming happiness. i want to bring that feeling to you again. and please know that i am forever sorry. i am not asking for sympathy, but i am just asking you to not let the evil overpower the good. i know we have been through a lot of bad times, but with each other we have been through the greatest times we both have ever experienced. please just consider that. i am not telling you to do anything, i am just setting that out on the table. i am also forever grateful to have ever met YOU. if you could find it in your loving heart to forgive me, i swear i will make it up to you for the rest of my life. i know that is the typical thing to say, but i really do mean it. i mean you see how i am now, and have always been with you, always wanting to make you happy. although lately i know it does not seem that way, but please know that is and has always been my main goal. well i guess we'll talk more later, but please in making your decision or in thinking of me, please do not let the good be taken over by the evil. just please remember me....
and yes i know anyone can read this, but its cool, they can think what they want.

Re: rememberance

[anonymous]

i know you fell awful but i mean you hurt me and you hurt me over and over again and i dotn what to say to you i mean you just keep doing it again and again. everyday you seem to do something to hurt me again but i dunno i mean you are very important to me, but we are not unsettled and i want you to knwo we arent unsettled. we are friends, the best of friends and we are leaving as friend not as enemies i mean i am glad you know that i dont hat eyou because i dont. and another thing i forgave ages ago but that duznt mean i have to go crying in your arms saying that we are together. i Forgave you and thats it. i did. you are human, we all are. but i did, i forgave you. so knwo that i forgave you and we are not leaving this unsettled and that we are friends and we will be and i hope that you can leave with a satisfaction that we are still buddys but i dont know what else to say but that we are friends.i mean i really need time to think about it and figure out what i want to do. because it hurts because i thought you were different but i see you kind of the same as everyone else because of what you did but then again i see you different because of what you did too. but i am talking about the good things you did that made you different but you are one of the most important people to me and i want you to knwo that ok . . . well we will talk later so until them - adios -

Re: hope

[anonymous]

ii am glad that we are the best of friends. i hope you know i hold you higher than ANYONE else. you are my queen, my angel and i hope it shows. i know i have hurt you in the worst way, and you know that you have hurt me a couple times, but that does not compare to what i did. i never saw myself as being a bad guy, but i guess i am. what hurts me the most about what i did is that you think of me like you think of anyone else. you look at me sometimes like you don't know who i am. like i am some foreign stranger that disgusts you. i feel like anyone else in the world. i don't feel like i matter anymore. you made me matter. dont worry i'm not getty all psycho clingy or anything, but thats just how i feel. it hurts when i think that i lost my special place in your heart. that place that shinned brighter than anything else. that place is what made me special. the idea that i was something so important to you. i know i still kind of am, but not as much. i just wish i could still be THE SPECIAL GUY. i let that light fade. i ruined it all. i deserve to feel like this, miserable. and thats how i'm going to feel for a long time. i will give all the time you need, but i slowly die each day when i am with you, but not WITH you. you have to be so cute and so lovely,and so adorable i just want to grab you and hug you and kiss you, but i don't think you would like that...but anyway i would rather die in your arms than die alone. dying inside is bad enough, but to be alone would literally kill me. so i will make the most of our time together, but not really together. i know that we can't just fix this in an instant, and it seems so real. i keep saying that cause whenever i am with you i feel like i'm dreaming. i guess i turned our dream into a nightmare. everything happens for a reason, so i really hope this is happening to make US stronger. i really hope i haven't ruined us completely and that some hope still remains. i hope you will let me make it up to you. i hope this will all work out to how WE use to be. i hope we can make this better, even better than before. i hope WE can work. i hope....