sleep deprivation sucks..

[breaking_yoli]

So it's six days till i'm on my way to LA, california. (california, california, you're such a wonder that i think i'll stay..haha.. i like that song, go Rufus) any way.. well i've actually and officially been 'grounded'.. i've never really been grounded before but it feels just the same as always.. i'm just as bored, lonely, and flustered as usual.. these past two weeks haven't been the best to me, i guess the trip to California might actually do some good. I'll be away from all this crazy stress and with no one but the good ol' RSS band (my new family).. it's really sad that of all weeks i chose this weekend to be grounded.. i missed leeland AND the last star fighter at the harbour.. garrr.. oh well.. there will be better days. So my livejournal is all PIMPED-OUT today.. colin gave me some cool little tips.. i suppose we're on fairly good speaking terms, even though it's a bit awkward at times.. at least for me.. ahhh i'm being kicked off the computer by my mom.. slash/

mi madre.. ma maman.. meine Mutter..

look me and my trilingual-self.. hmm.. er.. whatever the 'four language' word is.. ahh.. i better go.. later

I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
And you know it makes me sick to be on that list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

You say you’re gonna burn before you mellow
I will be the one to burn you
Why’d you have to go and pick me?
When you that we were different, completely

Your wildness scares me
So does your freedom
You say you can’t stand the restrictions
I find myself trying to change you
If you were meant to be my lover I wouldn’t have to

And I feel so mean, I feel in between
‘Cause I’m about to give you away

I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend (for someone else to take)
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend (am I making a mistake?)
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time that we spent)
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girl, friend

I’m about to give you away for someone else to take

We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs
And we’ve been in between the days for years
And I know that when I see you I’m going to die
I know I’m going to want you and you know why
It’s going to kill me to see you with the next girl
‘Cause I’m the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl

I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girl friend

I’m another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed