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wow so um.. why am i still up?
i get excited when i see my name in print in a book or recorded in a random song... like "gingerly" in The Bell Jar. its in there twice, i cant find the first time tho. it interests me what the type looks like upon the paper it is printed.
& in Final Fantasy's "The CN Tower Belongs To The Dead" I like to hear how my name sounds on an artist's lips. especially when its not even in reference to a person. and of course not in reference to me. i have had a song written and recorded about me by a local band but thankfully my name wasnt mentioned. i have the cd but i have only ever listened to it once. its scary. like opening a cellar door. what movie is it that says "cellardoor" the the most beautiful word?.. (Psst.. Kendall help me out here)
i finished all my homework for the night a good 2 hours ago.
and i survived the 14th. not really that big of a deal though i guess... never has been any reason for it to be. my dad did send me roses though. if only i had a proper place to put them.
I dont have any clean clothes.. but dont tell anyone...
i'm really trying. i swear.
trying to keep my goals in mind and follow them. each step is so tiny towards what i want. i have to continue to remind myself that each one really does count or something.. its time to stop slacking and putting off..
just like i'm putting off sleeping.... because i want to put off waking up. doesnt work that why though
obviously
i get excited when i see my name in print in a book or recorded in a random song... like "gingerly" in The Bell Jar. its in there twice, i cant find the first time tho. it interests me what the type looks like upon the paper it is printed.
& in Final Fantasy's "The CN Tower Belongs To The Dead" I like to hear how my name sounds on an artist's lips. especially when its not even in reference to a person. and of course not in reference to me. i have had a song written and recorded about me by a local band but thankfully my name wasnt mentioned. i have the cd but i have only ever listened to it once. its scary. like opening a cellar door. what movie is it that says "cellardoor" the the most beautiful word?.. (Psst.. Kendall help me out here)
i finished all my homework for the night a good 2 hours ago.
and i survived the 14th. not really that big of a deal though i guess... never has been any reason for it to be. my dad did send me roses though. if only i had a proper place to put them.
I dont have any clean clothes.. but dont tell anyone...
i'm really trying. i swear.
trying to keep my goals in mind and follow them. each step is so tiny towards what i want. i have to continue to remind myself that each one really does count or something.. its time to stop slacking and putting off..
just like i'm putting off sleeping.... because i want to put off waking up. doesnt work that why though
obviously