water down

[breaking_uphill]

i should stop.
stop what i'm doing.
stop what i have started.
stop what i have started that i cant even find the beginning to.
start over.
mop up the over flowing water.
water down my emotions.
water down my relationships.
water down my friendships.
pour myself into something i can fully control.
control my body.
love my body.
make my body into something i can actually love.
put love on the back-burner.
suppress my surplus lust.
deny myself the lustful prospects.
learn how to separate lust from emotion.
is there a way to do so?
is there a way to do anything as planned?

-Ginger-

i'm sorry for what i put you through