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I must be pms-ing.
I must, I must, I must.
Or why would I feel the sudden urge to cry??
It's almost as if...
Things are going fine, right? I'm happy and laughing and everything...
Then I hit this wall, and someone comes up to me, puts a gun to my head, gags my mouth, and stuffs in a potato sack. I'm suffocating and claustrophobic... and god..
I won't cry though.
Nope.
I was so proud of myself, cause at school, I was about to cry, but I choked it back.
And I would have pat myself on the back, but I didn't.
Why does everyone know and I don't??
If something bad was happening and I didn't know, you'd tell me right?
No... no you wouldn't. God, you guys really suck, you know that???
HOW CAN YOU LET ME BE SO FUCKING STUPID???
I SWEAR I'VE LOST MY MIND!! I PICTURE MYSELF TOSSING AND TURNING AND KNOCKING THINGS OVER... I WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY AND JUST.. FALL INTO A COMA.
I'm going to try.. to put myself in a coma.. anyone want to help? I think if you stop breathing a certain way it will do it...
okay well I'll be going.
I'm too non-menstrual-but-might-as-well-be to write.
-hope
I must, I must, I must.
Or why would I feel the sudden urge to cry??
It's almost as if...
Things are going fine, right? I'm happy and laughing and everything...
Then I hit this wall, and someone comes up to me, puts a gun to my head, gags my mouth, and stuffs in a potato sack. I'm suffocating and claustrophobic... and god..
I won't cry though.
Nope.
I was so proud of myself, cause at school, I was about to cry, but I choked it back.
And I would have pat myself on the back, but I didn't.
Why does everyone know and I don't??
If something bad was happening and I didn't know, you'd tell me right?
No... no you wouldn't. God, you guys really suck, you know that???
HOW CAN YOU LET ME BE SO FUCKING STUPID???
I SWEAR I'VE LOST MY MIND!! I PICTURE MYSELF TOSSING AND TURNING AND KNOCKING THINGS OVER... I WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY AND JUST.. FALL INTO A COMA.
I'm going to try.. to put myself in a coma.. anyone want to help? I think if you stop breathing a certain way it will do it...
okay well I'll be going.
I'm too non-menstrual-but-might-as-well-be to write.
-hope