hmm the best days of my life... i think i will pass
so i have realized a lot since i last updated my journal... i am so tired of my life, i mean a lot of stuff is going ok for me but more then less i always find myself depressed... i bottle up my emotions and even my best friends dont know how i really feel and a lot of people at pelham are not helping
if you have a problem with me then thats cool, i dont expect everyone to like me nor do i care if you do or not, but most of yall i havnt done shit to or have ever talked to, and i dont have a problem with you so i dont see why you hate me so much but you know what thats cool, i know how life is so i dont give a shit if you dont like me, but if i havnt done anything to you nor have i ever talked to you then why do you waste your time talking shit about me? i am kinda confused about that, but i dont want to fight anyone nor am i going to thats not me, but why dont you just leave me alone.... and yea if your talking shit about me because of Brandon then i am fucking tired of it, yall are making fun of me because i am pressing charges, well why dont you take time and realize the truth before you say shit, the only reason i am pressing charges is there is a fucking $2,000 medical bill and my mom doesnt have money to pay for that and the only way the insurance company will pay for it is if we press charges... well i hope yall r proud of yourselves bc your basically making fun of me becuase i am not as blessed as yall with money, so i appologize to you if my not being wealthy pisses you off, i cant help it so please fucking leave me alone
i drawing closer and closer to oak mountain every day... i cant wait until i can start over, it seems like i made one mistake that i would take back with anything has fucking ruined my life, i am sorry i am not perfect, cant wait until college i am getting out of alabama as soon as i can, i want to met people with open minds to anything and anybody, people that it doesnt matter what you wear or who you hang out with that they still like you because your a good person or you have a great personality
on other news, one of the people at the game that was chanting shit, i heard that one of their parentrs lost their job and i know they have three kids and that was their only source of income... well i want everyone to pray for them with me, i know that must be hard and wish them the best even though they dont like me no one deserves to go through that and they will be in my prayers
"you will miss them when they go to college"< you dont know how true that is, just the absence of them around the house makes me miss him even though i never captalized on the time he was here living with us
one last thing, Kerry is an inconserderate bitch... how can anyone single out a young girls personal information on national tv just to prove his point, well personally i would rather have morals not to do that then be ellected president of the united states
one light
one mind
flashing in the dark
blinded by the silence of a 1,000 broken hearts
for crying out loud
she screamed unto me
a free for all fuck them all
you are your own sight
'cause I wanna be the minority
I don't need your authority
down with the moral majority
'cause I wanna be the minority -
GreenDay- Minority
Well i am looking forward to going to homecoming with Liz C, that should be fun