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Well I thought I'd take the time and actually update this thing for once. This weekend went pretty good for a weekend with my dad. My mom went to Maine on Friday, so it was just me and mi padre for the weekend. Friday night I hung out with Kristin Lewis, Gia, and Mckenzie. We went to McDonalds to visit Kara and get free food lol. It was pretty fun. Kristin and I went in the little kids playground, until we realized it was really small and started getting freaked out. On Saterday I hung out with Mike, and on Sunday I went to the gym then hung out with Mike. On Monday I went to the gym, then Tasha and I went back to my house. I cleaned my room while she watched the whole first season of the Simple Life on DVD. She enjoyed it and so did I. It was also Elise's birthday so I took her and Tasha out to dinner at Bassets Inn. Today I'm going to the gym, then going to Mike's at 6 so I'm excited about that.
We learned more about abusive relationships today, I think Mr. Kennedy picked up on the vibe I was giving out. I was getting really upset again, more bad memories with the bitch. In class he said "It's not like you can pick out who's abused, or the abusee." Then he pointed to some kid, "He abuses his gf", then he looked around for a little and pointed at me "she was abused", my heart sank, and once again I couldnt breathe. I think he saw in my eyes that I was hurt. On the way out of class I talked to him about my health journal then as I was walking out the door he said "Rachel" I turned around and he looked at me, straight in the eyes and sincerely said, "Have a good day". I said thanks, and told him to have a good day as well. I really like his class, but it hurts at the same time. It informs me of things I never realized, things that the bitch did that I always thought were my fault were him manipulating me and emotionally, verbally, and sexually abusing me. It's good I've realized that those memories I've surpresed were'nt my fault, and it's good to know that I've moved on from him and now am completely in love with someone that I can trust, that wont hurt me and honestly loves me.
Well Tasha just called, she wants me to pick her up so I'm going to go do that so we can go to the gym and what not.
<333 Much Love
We learned more about abusive relationships today, I think Mr. Kennedy picked up on the vibe I was giving out. I was getting really upset again, more bad memories with the bitch. In class he said "It's not like you can pick out who's abused, or the abusee." Then he pointed to some kid, "He abuses his gf", then he looked around for a little and pointed at me "she was abused", my heart sank, and once again I couldnt breathe. I think he saw in my eyes that I was hurt. On the way out of class I talked to him about my health journal then as I was walking out the door he said "Rachel" I turned around and he looked at me, straight in the eyes and sincerely said, "Have a good day". I said thanks, and told him to have a good day as well. I really like his class, but it hurts at the same time. It informs me of things I never realized, things that the bitch did that I always thought were my fault were him manipulating me and emotionally, verbally, and sexually abusing me. It's good I've realized that those memories I've surpresed were'nt my fault, and it's good to know that I've moved on from him and now am completely in love with someone that I can trust, that wont hurt me and honestly loves me.
Well Tasha just called, she wants me to pick her up so I'm going to go do that so we can go to the gym and what not.
<333 Much Love