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I upset Mike and myself. :-( We were talking about what if I got pregnent? Because we kind of had sex but not with no pertection. He asked me if I would get an abortion and I said I would never do that. And when I asked him if I got pregnent would he stay with me and he didn't know. That hurt a lot, a lot more than I excpected. So I think I'm going to talk to him about this tomorrow. I don't think we should have sex. Unless he's positive that if I got pregnent he would stay with me and help me raise the child. Because I don't want to take a risk like that and end up a 16 year old single mother. I think that when two people have sex they should both understand what the consiquences could be, and both be on the same page about them. And I know Mike isn't ready for the consequences that could be, so until he is I don't think we should have sex. I can't believe I'm saying that. I'm sure a lot of people would be shocked to hear that, I'm shocked I'm even thinking that. I definitly think we should wait though, I know it's to soon and I'm scared to rush into anything. I want this to last and when things are rushed and intense they don't last long at all. I think if we slow down things we'll last this time, I know a lot of people doupt it, but I know if we make the right choices it will last. I'm just so scared of losing him, I don't know what I would do without him, I don't even want to think about it...
<3 Muah!
<3 Muah!