Are you kidding?
Okay so my friends, Greg and Kiersten have been dating for maybe almost four years or so. They broke up this weekend in probably the most horrible way you can break up with someone. Kier says Greg broke it off and I got the whole story but I don't think it's right to broadcast it here. Trust me, it's horrifying enough that I'll remember it for a long time. Anyway, Kier told me and I told Chrissy and Bill. So we went to Ben's last night and Chrissy, Queen of Subtly, goes "So what happened with you and Greg?" Well poor Kier bursts into tears and goes outside. Chrissy and I follow her out about ten minutes later, letting her get in her alone time first...Okay it was actually a chance for us to get Greg's side of the story from Ben.
Now I should give you a bit of background. Kier and Greg ALWAYS fight but it's always stupid things that they get over in an hour. It's usually because Greg did something stupid and Kier over reacted. Guilty on both parties. Though, I knew when Kier first told me about the break-up that this wasn't just like all the others. I could tell by the way she sounded and how she didn't want to talk about it at all, usually she's filled with the words.
So Chrissy and I go outside and we're talking and she tells us the whole story and it's a horrible story that I don't want to relive. I felt so bad for her because she doesn't deserve that and truthfully, Greg didn't deserve the way that she would act towards him either sometimes. I was trying to be supportive but Chrissy kept butting in and disagreeing with everything I was saying. Then I said, "Kier, I know the feeling of rejection so I know how you feel." Well Chrissy goes, "No you don't because it's a lot different having someone love you and then having that ripped out from under you." Um...I'm sorry how the fuck would you know? Bill and her have never broken up. They've been close to it but never actually done it. And I do believe that my ex best friend, Steve, used to tell me he loved me more than any one of his other friends and sure that's not romantic love but it's love all the same. I had that ripped out from me more harshly than Greg dumped Kier. At least Greg didn't say degrading things to Kier like Steve did to me.
It just really pissed me off that Chrissy didn't think I was a reliable source to help out our friend. Anyway later that night we were all hanging outside and I was talking to Derek when I saw Kier pull Chrissy over to the side and start talking to her about Greg. Now that really hurt my feelings because Chrissy, Kier, and I are the only girls in our group and I felt like I wasn't apart of them anymore. I looked over at Derek and nodded my head at them. "See that? I'm not apart of that because apparently I don't know what it feels like." Derek looked at me and offered me his cigarette. I so needed it too so I took it. I haven't smoked in a while but it felt amazing. Derek tried to keep me happy by messing around and trying to make me smile so that's something but still...it hurt. Especially because at the end of the night when Kier and Tim were going home Kier went over to Chrissy and gave her hug. All I got was a "Bye V" from across the driveway. I looked at Derek again and he handed me another smoke (good guy that Derek). I just felt like an outsider with my friends and that really sucked.
Today I IMed Kier and asked her how she was doing. She said that she had barely slept or eaten and she kept trying to call Greg. I told her to stop because he needs to realize what he's missing if he's going to come back. So I texted Chrissy and was like "Maybe we should go to Kier's today to check up on her." She sent me back a text that said, "I just woke up." I said, "Okay I didn't mean right now. She doesn't have work until 8." I got no response. So around 4 I called Chrissy and asked her what she was up to. She was hanging with Bill and I could tell they wanted to be alone so I quickly just asked if she wanted to get in touch with Kier today. She said she already had and that Greg had called her back and Kier is beginning to realize that it may really be over. Okay I was happy about the news with Kier but hello? Could Chrissy not have called me and told me that she was doing better instead of having me worry about her all day? I was hurt again. I hate that I was left out of it again. It feels like Chrissy doesn't want me around her and Kier's little relationship club. So I have been in my house all day and sleeping most of the day away.
I talked to my best friend Kate today though. She's coming home from Nevada tonight but not till late so I'm gonna see if she wants to hang out on Thursday because I have off that day. I really need to just be around Kate and even Julia right now would help. Maybe because they actually listen when I talk. OH and something that pissed me off to no end. Kier has a friend from grade school that is quickly dying of cancer. She said that Greg wouldn't talk to her about it and I had to defend Greg there. Because I watched my Grandpop die of cancer when I was 13. So I said, "He may not know how to handle it." And Chrissy goes, "No he should at least talk to her about it." I gave her a dirty look because she knew what I went through and she knows to this day I don't like talking about it. I said, "No it is really difficult to talk about that type of thing for two reasons. One, if you never been in that type of situation before and two it's too hard to deal with when you don't understand something."
I was so heated by the end of the night I just wanted to scream. Thank God I have work tomorrow. It'll keep my mind off of all this shit. Alrighty I'm gonna go before I break the keyboard from all this typing. I'll update later in the week perhaps.
Now I should give you a bit of background. Kier and Greg ALWAYS fight but it's always stupid things that they get over in an hour. It's usually because Greg did something stupid and Kier over reacted. Guilty on both parties. Though, I knew when Kier first told me about the break-up that this wasn't just like all the others. I could tell by the way she sounded and how she didn't want to talk about it at all, usually she's filled with the words.
So Chrissy and I go outside and we're talking and she tells us the whole story and it's a horrible story that I don't want to relive. I felt so bad for her because she doesn't deserve that and truthfully, Greg didn't deserve the way that she would act towards him either sometimes. I was trying to be supportive but Chrissy kept butting in and disagreeing with everything I was saying. Then I said, "Kier, I know the feeling of rejection so I know how you feel." Well Chrissy goes, "No you don't because it's a lot different having someone love you and then having that ripped out from under you." Um...I'm sorry how the fuck would you know? Bill and her have never broken up. They've been close to it but never actually done it. And I do believe that my ex best friend, Steve, used to tell me he loved me more than any one of his other friends and sure that's not romantic love but it's love all the same. I had that ripped out from me more harshly than Greg dumped Kier. At least Greg didn't say degrading things to Kier like Steve did to me.
It just really pissed me off that Chrissy didn't think I was a reliable source to help out our friend. Anyway later that night we were all hanging outside and I was talking to Derek when I saw Kier pull Chrissy over to the side and start talking to her about Greg. Now that really hurt my feelings because Chrissy, Kier, and I are the only girls in our group and I felt like I wasn't apart of them anymore. I looked over at Derek and nodded my head at them. "See that? I'm not apart of that because apparently I don't know what it feels like." Derek looked at me and offered me his cigarette. I so needed it too so I took it. I haven't smoked in a while but it felt amazing. Derek tried to keep me happy by messing around and trying to make me smile so that's something but still...it hurt. Especially because at the end of the night when Kier and Tim were going home Kier went over to Chrissy and gave her hug. All I got was a "Bye V" from across the driveway. I looked at Derek again and he handed me another smoke (good guy that Derek). I just felt like an outsider with my friends and that really sucked.
Today I IMed Kier and asked her how she was doing. She said that she had barely slept or eaten and she kept trying to call Greg. I told her to stop because he needs to realize what he's missing if he's going to come back. So I texted Chrissy and was like "Maybe we should go to Kier's today to check up on her." She sent me back a text that said, "I just woke up." I said, "Okay I didn't mean right now. She doesn't have work until 8." I got no response. So around 4 I called Chrissy and asked her what she was up to. She was hanging with Bill and I could tell they wanted to be alone so I quickly just asked if she wanted to get in touch with Kier today. She said she already had and that Greg had called her back and Kier is beginning to realize that it may really be over. Okay I was happy about the news with Kier but hello? Could Chrissy not have called me and told me that she was doing better instead of having me worry about her all day? I was hurt again. I hate that I was left out of it again. It feels like Chrissy doesn't want me around her and Kier's little relationship club. So I have been in my house all day and sleeping most of the day away.
I talked to my best friend Kate today though. She's coming home from Nevada tonight but not till late so I'm gonna see if she wants to hang out on Thursday because I have off that day. I really need to just be around Kate and even Julia right now would help. Maybe because they actually listen when I talk. OH and something that pissed me off to no end. Kier has a friend from grade school that is quickly dying of cancer. She said that Greg wouldn't talk to her about it and I had to defend Greg there. Because I watched my Grandpop die of cancer when I was 13. So I said, "He may not know how to handle it." And Chrissy goes, "No he should at least talk to her about it." I gave her a dirty look because she knew what I went through and she knows to this day I don't like talking about it. I said, "No it is really difficult to talk about that type of thing for two reasons. One, if you never been in that type of situation before and two it's too hard to deal with when you don't understand something."
I was so heated by the end of the night I just wanted to scream. Thank God I have work tomorrow. It'll keep my mind off of all this shit. Alrighty I'm gonna go before I break the keyboard from all this typing. I'll update later in the week perhaps.