why this tension?
I'm writing because I haven't in so long. We don't have the internet at the house and i only check email once or twice a week. I'm in the lab now wasting time until class starts at 10. I have a car now. That's a relief. I hated being in utter dependence on everyone. I talked to keith about it one night. He was really cool about it. I had expressed to him how I felt bad about asking for rides all the time and stuff and he responded by saying that it is just as important to learn to receive as it is to learn to give. That was a cool way of looking at it and it helped to not feel so bad about things. But yes, now that I have the car I don't feel half as burdensome to people I care about and I also feel a lot less trapped.
The car is from an ebay auction. weird.
So... i'm all full of conflicting feelings right now. lot's of tension. desires are so strong and i don't know what to do with them. At this point, i lack the opportunity to gratify them. So i'm left with all this hope and anticipation bound up and limited by circumstance and uncertainty. welcome to the state of my heart.
and sometimes it's difficult to hear you say those things.
I'm looking for a new job. I like the produce market but I dunno.... Sometimes business is slow and it gets boring and it doesn't pay real well. It's still fun for the most part and I would hate to quit but I'll have to if I find something better that is full time.
I have 3 papers I need to start on this week. A 10 page romans paper, a 10 page abnormal psychology paper, and a 3 page music appreciation opinion paper. Yay. I should really go find an adapter so we can hook the computer up at the house (none of the outlets in our house are grounded). I despise working in the lab.
Time for class.
The car is from an ebay auction. weird.
So... i'm all full of conflicting feelings right now. lot's of tension. desires are so strong and i don't know what to do with them. At this point, i lack the opportunity to gratify them. So i'm left with all this hope and anticipation bound up and limited by circumstance and uncertainty. welcome to the state of my heart.
and sometimes it's difficult to hear you say those things.
I'm looking for a new job. I like the produce market but I dunno.... Sometimes business is slow and it gets boring and it doesn't pay real well. It's still fun for the most part and I would hate to quit but I'll have to if I find something better that is full time.
I have 3 papers I need to start on this week. A 10 page romans paper, a 10 page abnormal psychology paper, and a 3 page music appreciation opinion paper. Yay. I should really go find an adapter so we can hook the computer up at the house (none of the outlets in our house are grounded). I despise working in the lab.
Time for class.