The past.
Sometimes you never realize what you had, until it's gone.
It's amazing how someone can change in the blink of an eye. I dont exactly know how or why this all happened, but for some reason it did. This place is entirely too big for just me, I never realized that before, but now that he is around I feel ackward and confused, and Im not sure where I belong or stand. But its like hes gone. And gone is the wrong word because Im not sure if he is literally gone but I know for sure he is gone in my little world, because I doubt he will ever stop by and look at me like he used too. Maybe he just needs time to work this out and figure out how he feels about everything.
But there is always other fish in the sea right? It's just that sometimes I just cant get over people that easily like others do, Its been a few months but it seems like were just a dream or something. That he never will come back and things are just as fucked up between the two of us. Trust me, I wasnt planning on all of this, I couldnt believe it. I thought things were going to go smoothly I didnt intend for any of this to happen.
Lately its like, we havent been talking much we have been ignoring each other. Or maybe we just dont have the right words to say to each other beacuse we are both scared something bad is going to happen the more we want to stay friends. It's pretty much my fault entirely because Im so wrapped up in what I want and how I want things, Im not sure what he thinks/cares about. Im trying my hardest to understand and listen. I just wish him and I could talk a bit more, instead of just talking when we want to have a go at each other.
But now Im just rambling on and Im remembering things that I shouldnt, and Im probably remembering them wrong. After all, time has a way of sweetening things that it shouldnt and comparing reality to the past practically ends bad, so I'll just shutup for awhile.
It's amazing how someone can change in the blink of an eye. I dont exactly know how or why this all happened, but for some reason it did. This place is entirely too big for just me, I never realized that before, but now that he is around I feel ackward and confused, and Im not sure where I belong or stand. But its like hes gone. And gone is the wrong word because Im not sure if he is literally gone but I know for sure he is gone in my little world, because I doubt he will ever stop by and look at me like he used too. Maybe he just needs time to work this out and figure out how he feels about everything.
But there is always other fish in the sea right? It's just that sometimes I just cant get over people that easily like others do, Its been a few months but it seems like were just a dream or something. That he never will come back and things are just as fucked up between the two of us. Trust me, I wasnt planning on all of this, I couldnt believe it. I thought things were going to go smoothly I didnt intend for any of this to happen.
Lately its like, we havent been talking much we have been ignoring each other. Or maybe we just dont have the right words to say to each other beacuse we are both scared something bad is going to happen the more we want to stay friends. It's pretty much my fault entirely because Im so wrapped up in what I want and how I want things, Im not sure what he thinks/cares about. Im trying my hardest to understand and listen. I just wish him and I could talk a bit more, instead of just talking when we want to have a go at each other.
But now Im just rambling on and Im remembering things that I shouldnt, and Im probably remembering them wrong. After all, time has a way of sweetening things that it shouldnt and comparing reality to the past practically ends bad, so I'll just shutup for awhile.