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this is the hardest decision i have ever had to make in my life.
i am so torn right now.
i haven't updated this thing in about a million years but i need to get this off my chest.
there is no way to solve this situation without totally fucking something up.
bryan broke up with me and it took a lot for me to get over him. i start 'dating' jimi....so bryan tells me that he loves me and fucked up and he's sorry? i should have stopped it right there and told him that i would not get back with him. he hurt me so bad. i was over him. in a good place. happy with my life. but no. i kept it going. i told him about jimi and let him come over to talk to me. i let him say i love you and i said it back. i told them both i needed some time to think about things. so now i'm sitting here with bryan thinking that i'm getting back w/ him and totally hurting jimi when he doesnt deserve it.
i can sit and think about who i want more. i should be with jimi. i just started something with him. it's not fair to him. we were going so good. it was for real this time. who cares about the past?
im in love with bryan. i have 7 months with him. he's like my best friend and we fit together perfectly. but he hurt me and i was so sure i was over him. even though he realized his mistake and apologizes every 30 seconds or so.
whenever i am with one of them...i want that one. every so often i reach a conclusion and am sure ive reached the right decision....and then something makes me change my mind again.
everyone tells me that i should be with jimi. but its so easy to be with bryan again. so easy. everything is already there. nothing to start over or rebuild.
i dont know what to do in this situation. its too fucking complicated.
i can't wait til i can grow up and have real problems to worry about. this seems so insignificant.
i am so torn right now.
i haven't updated this thing in about a million years but i need to get this off my chest.
there is no way to solve this situation without totally fucking something up.
bryan broke up with me and it took a lot for me to get over him. i start 'dating' jimi....so bryan tells me that he loves me and fucked up and he's sorry? i should have stopped it right there and told him that i would not get back with him. he hurt me so bad. i was over him. in a good place. happy with my life. but no. i kept it going. i told him about jimi and let him come over to talk to me. i let him say i love you and i said it back. i told them both i needed some time to think about things. so now i'm sitting here with bryan thinking that i'm getting back w/ him and totally hurting jimi when he doesnt deserve it.
i can sit and think about who i want more. i should be with jimi. i just started something with him. it's not fair to him. we were going so good. it was for real this time. who cares about the past?
im in love with bryan. i have 7 months with him. he's like my best friend and we fit together perfectly. but he hurt me and i was so sure i was over him. even though he realized his mistake and apologizes every 30 seconds or so.
whenever i am with one of them...i want that one. every so often i reach a conclusion and am sure ive reached the right decision....and then something makes me change my mind again.
everyone tells me that i should be with jimi. but its so easy to be with bryan again. so easy. everything is already there. nothing to start over or rebuild.
i dont know what to do in this situation. its too fucking complicated.
i can't wait til i can grow up and have real problems to worry about. this seems so insignificant.