Hmn, how long has it been....?
So I think I would start writing this blog again because I want to practise on my my skill a little, though I have no idea what I should write...
I mean, this blog has always been a place for me to relieve my frustration, my inside thoughts...
In other word, my complex character.
Recently, I have been thinking about who I am a lot, not because of the thing happens (which really disappointed me) with my aunt in Vietnam. When I see my counsin said that "I understand her more than you" with her friend and went on and on how she was so sad and disappointed about me and remembered how much we had fun in the past...
I feel not only sadness, but somehow a joy, a joy that not even the one seems close to me understands me.
The phase "I understand you" is something I hate, because in my belief, I don't believe anyone can understand other completely. However, the phase "You are just like me" is different. Not only that person seems to feel what I feel, but also they share a little about themselves too. In fact, after they said that phase they would never question anything, but let me overcome everything by myself.
That friend of her, I can say "we are both alike". Though, not completely.
She is much braver than me. At least, she can talk what she wants, she is more rebellious, which makes everything easier. But me, I can't.
Because my brother has been a trouble, I have to be normal.
Because the family is in a broken up state, I have to be apathetic.
When I finally stopped writing on this blog, I thought that I finally could open my heart, even just a little.
Everything is the same, since a long time ago. I'm still questioning what I can do, I don't want my inferiority complex gets to me...
I will start writing on this again...
Well, I just start rereading Tsubasa again, and Fye is still my favorite.
Because he is so much like me...
I would want to talk about it in a later time, but honestly, the more you feel someone similar to you, the more you realize about yourself, and the more I want to have a happy ending like Fye.
If only I can have someone to reach out their hands...
I mean, this blog has always been a place for me to relieve my frustration, my inside thoughts...
In other word, my complex character.
Recently, I have been thinking about who I am a lot, not because of the thing happens (which really disappointed me) with my aunt in Vietnam. When I see my counsin said that "I understand her more than you" with her friend and went on and on how she was so sad and disappointed about me and remembered how much we had fun in the past...
I feel not only sadness, but somehow a joy, a joy that not even the one seems close to me understands me.
The phase "I understand you" is something I hate, because in my belief, I don't believe anyone can understand other completely. However, the phase "You are just like me" is different. Not only that person seems to feel what I feel, but also they share a little about themselves too. In fact, after they said that phase they would never question anything, but let me overcome everything by myself.
That friend of her, I can say "we are both alike". Though, not completely.
She is much braver than me. At least, she can talk what she wants, she is more rebellious, which makes everything easier. But me, I can't.
Because my brother has been a trouble, I have to be normal.
Because the family is in a broken up state, I have to be apathetic.
When I finally stopped writing on this blog, I thought that I finally could open my heart, even just a little.
Everything is the same, since a long time ago. I'm still questioning what I can do, I don't want my inferiority complex gets to me...
I will start writing on this again...
Well, I just start rereading Tsubasa again, and Fye is still my favorite.
Because he is so much like me...
I would want to talk about it in a later time, but honestly, the more you feel someone similar to you, the more you realize about yourself, and the more I want to have a happy ending like Fye.
If only I can have someone to reach out their hands...