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I'm not gonna bitch because I know I'm doing this to myself.
Fuck that. Hey how about everybody else make me feel like shit a little more??
She's right. I hate this. I hate this more than anything. I hate admitting I'm wrong. I hate feeling like shit. I hate being in love with you sometimes. You make me so fucking crazy. You're the only person who actually makes me wish I was dead sometimes. But I love you. I fucking love you so much. I am so in love with you. You make me the happiest person alive. Then two seconds later make me wish I was dead. I can't decide which I can bear. I can't decide if being happy for a week is worth being miserable for a month until you decide that you're going to stop messing up again. God you drive me so fucking crazy. I want to go back a year to where you weren't part of my life. It was all okay then. Oh who am I kidding?? No I don't. I love you too much. You mess with my head so much. I want to die right now. I think I can honestly say that I want to die right now. I have never been so hurt in my entire life. Never. Not even when I was fighting with my very best friend. Fuck this.
Fuck that. Hey how about everybody else make me feel like shit a little more??
She's right. I hate this. I hate this more than anything. I hate admitting I'm wrong. I hate feeling like shit. I hate being in love with you sometimes. You make me so fucking crazy. You're the only person who actually makes me wish I was dead sometimes. But I love you. I fucking love you so much. I am so in love with you. You make me the happiest person alive. Then two seconds later make me wish I was dead. I can't decide which I can bear. I can't decide if being happy for a week is worth being miserable for a month until you decide that you're going to stop messing up again. God you drive me so fucking crazy. I want to go back a year to where you weren't part of my life. It was all okay then. Oh who am I kidding?? No I don't. I love you too much. You mess with my head so much. I want to die right now. I think I can honestly say that I want to die right now. I have never been so hurt in my entire life. Never. Not even when I was fighting with my very best friend. Fuck this.