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I am a Military girlfriend.
I am a military girlfriend. I hold no formal recognition with the powers that be. i am at the bottom of the chain. I hold no military ID card; I am not a "dependent" or parent. The man I love may face unspeakable dangers, and I am at the mercy of those who possess this recognition for news. I understand this and accept this.
I am a military girlfriend. I have promised to be here for him upon his return, no matter how long he is away. People may say I am insane for making such a commitment with no quarentees, but I hold onto promises and have faith that he will come home safe to me. I know full well that my love him fuels him in the worst of times.
I am a military girlfriend. There is no ring on my finger to symbolize our commitment, through I love him no less for it. I hope everyday that he will be able to call because a simple 30-second phone call can bring the greatest spectrum of emotions...smiling with tears in my eyes from so much joy and pain. My relastionship is based on brief communication where "I love you and I'm okay" speaks more then volumes and gives me the strength to keep going.
I am a military girlfriend. I take no moment spent together for granted. I hold onto every touch, caress, kiss, and evey word. I have memorized the feel of his skin, his smell, the sound of his voice, and I play it over and over in my head so that I will not forget. I cry myself to sleep some nights because missing him hurts so badly, but wake up the next morning, brush myself off, and start a new day.
I am a military girlfriend. the events of the next serveral months hold my life, my love, and my future in the balance. When you watch the news reports, you may turn away and go about your business relatively unaffected. When i watch the news, stories of the war, I do not see nameless soldiers a half a world away. I see individuals who will be forever changed by the war. news of every casualty causes my physical pain and deep sadness.
I am a military girlfriend, not a spouse or family member. When you say your prayers for the wives, mothers and fathers, please don't forget about me too.
my favorite poem in the world. GOOD NEWS: 1) jamies coming home wiht his unit so he might come home two or three months earlier than hes sheduled too. 2) Jesse Bonnachai (from jamies unit) well, hes still at ft. wainwright but HES ENGAGED!!!!!! i got a call this afternoon adn he told me!! im so happy for him
LOVE YOU JAMIE