Well damn
What the hell...I thought I knew what my feelings were and that i was almost all sorted out. But as I am riding my metaphorical bike down the street after clearing my head at the pool with some friends some one goes and throws a god damn wrench in my spokes and I am stunned to realize that stuff or issues to me thought to be long dead were now a very active in my mind and I was knocked into speechlessness. I stumbled. I got sick. I had no idea what to do. I almost cried in frustration. I could not believe that this was still a issue. IT was like a skeleton jumped out of my closet and became whole and alive again.........and not just any skeleton.....their is only one skeleton in my closet that is bigger god knows what that thing is doing. So imagine......the second biggest skeleton in my closet coming out of no where and sucker punching me when i am completely defenseless. OMG.....I am lost......