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So this entry was from June ...
So Ive addressed my vision - got glasses. Addressed my weight - got diet pills. Addressed my bottom teeth - getting braces in approx. one
week, had consultation today. Addressed my appearance- growing out hair and will continue to revamp wardrobe - I'm in this horrible transition phase. All of this and and thousands of dollars later and I STILL FEEL ugly (oh my god, and fat).
Status Update Since then:
Got Glasses
Got the Braces (soon to be off in February)
On Accutane (will be on for four more months)
Got a personal trainer (starting next week)
Hair is fine
Wardrobe is questionable to say the least?
Diet pills ... TrimSpa - looking for something more powerful though.
So last night was really interesting. I've come to the conclusion that Matt L. is APPARENTLEY the hottest thing ever to set foot inside Club21 and had all the boy's either wanting him and his phone number, following him, and/or smacking his ass (sometimes all three at once! Now that is talent Matt!)Can I say JEALOUS! I mean I have never felt so undesirable in my entire life. That and to top it all off some bitch said I had a FATT ASS and that I was UGLY because he was trying to fight with me. So I was already freaking out that Matt was getting all the attention from the men and I was shunned to the back of the club dancing alone to San Francisco Nights because none of my friends liked me enough to go back in with me! Uh what a horrid night. Then Thanksgiving today? I am debating on whether or not to call my satanic mother who is so vile it makes me want to throw up.
What am I thankful for this year? FUCK THE WORLD
HIGHLIGHT of my night?
So when we got inside the car to come home last night I was whining about how ugly I felt because of that guy's comment he made to me about my body and then my old roomate Jenny's friend said Nick do you know what Jenny said the first time she ever mentioned you to me? I replied that I did not know and she said that Jenny said that I was this gorgeous Brazilian looking boy that was very hot. I wanted to cry. That was the nicest thing anyone has ever said about me. Ok I am going back to bed because we all know I won't be eating this Thanksgiving.
So Ive addressed my vision - got glasses. Addressed my weight - got diet pills. Addressed my bottom teeth - getting braces in approx. one
week, had consultation today. Addressed my appearance- growing out hair and will continue to revamp wardrobe - I'm in this horrible transition phase. All of this and and thousands of dollars later and I STILL FEEL ugly (oh my god, and fat).
Status Update Since then:
Got Glasses
Got the Braces (soon to be off in February)
On Accutane (will be on for four more months)
Got a personal trainer (starting next week)
Hair is fine
Wardrobe is questionable to say the least?
Diet pills ... TrimSpa - looking for something more powerful though.
So last night was really interesting. I've come to the conclusion that Matt L. is APPARENTLEY the hottest thing ever to set foot inside Club21 and had all the boy's either wanting him and his phone number, following him, and/or smacking his ass (sometimes all three at once! Now that is talent Matt!)Can I say JEALOUS! I mean I have never felt so undesirable in my entire life. That and to top it all off some bitch said I had a FATT ASS and that I was UGLY because he was trying to fight with me. So I was already freaking out that Matt was getting all the attention from the men and I was shunned to the back of the club dancing alone to San Francisco Nights because none of my friends liked me enough to go back in with me! Uh what a horrid night. Then Thanksgiving today? I am debating on whether or not to call my satanic mother who is so vile it makes me want to throw up.
What am I thankful for this year? FUCK THE WORLD
HIGHLIGHT of my night?
So when we got inside the car to come home last night I was whining about how ugly I felt because of that guy's comment he made to me about my body and then my old roomate Jenny's friend said Nick do you know what Jenny said the first time she ever mentioned you to me? I replied that I did not know and she said that Jenny said that I was this gorgeous Brazilian looking boy that was very hot. I wanted to cry. That was the nicest thing anyone has ever said about me. Ok I am going back to bed because we all know I won't be eating this Thanksgiving.