Stumble Upon has been leading me to more and more Kurt Vonnegut centered webpages!!!
So I had my first seriously out of body/out of self/happiness abound experience and I don't know how I feel about it. I liked it. I definitely think I would repeat. I don't want to become the person who wants to experience that every day/every week/a certain number of times in a particular amount of time. Moderation!!
And! A real new year's/become-a-better-person resolution! Learn on my own more often. This kind of happened accidentally with a bunch of stuff happening in the last two days coming together so I'm thinking I should just go with it and encourage this! With my recent discovery of the Skeptics' Guide to the Universe podcast (aided by Gerard basically forcing me to listen to it), the newly formed book club, the recently formed goal to speak Spanish with Shannon immediately preceding/following Spanish class, and my hot-off-the-press determination to go to as many interesting lectures offered on campus as possible, I think I'm on the right track. I'm not sure that sentence is completely grammatically correct, but c'est la vie!!
And! Get over my pathetic inability to read/watch something upsetting! I will: read/watch Into the Wild, reread/finish The Time Traveler's Wife (through book club!), read 100 Years of Solitude, eventually buy and read/watch The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, reread Everything Is Illuminated in the next week... so much stuff!! If this doesn't put me through a recession-like depression, I don't know what will!
Even though I'm only taking 15 credits (and the violin instructor hasn't emailed me back!!), I am really excited for this semester. Maybe I'll take some summer classes at HCC to catch up/get an English class or two/get more credits/take a course I probably normally wouldn't at school since it wouldn't fulfill a requirement... I want to start learning more things for the sake of learning them and enjoying it instead of just to say I know something about something or another. I'm sorry if I'm not making much sense. It's making some sort of sense in my head. And! The idea of auditing a class is becoming very very appealing... Particularly Philosophy 101... I might look into doing that this semester if there's time... Hmmm...
And... this is an idea I don't think I've vocalized (or even really formed in my mind). Maybe I've just had a feeling that I never really gave my thought to... But I don't know how I feel about going back to work at The Tomato Palace in the summer. I feel like there's so much stress associated with that job and it's a bit frustrating. I love it and if I serve I'm sure I'll make better money. But who knows. The only other place I could imagine working would be a restaurant (which doesn't help the high stress factor) or possibly Border's/Barnes & Noble or something, though I feel like one day I'll work at a bookstore and be highly disappointed. Maybe the library!! Hmm. I don't know how I'd feel about monotony, though. It'd be a nice break from the STRESS! STRESS! STRESS! AHH NO TABLES! AHH THE FOOD! AHH BITCHES! AHH DIRTY BATHROOMS! AHH! AHH! AHH! I kind of go through when I go to work now, I guess. Not that it's all bad. Just... hmm. I think I just want to be as far away from Jason Johnson as possible. Aaaaaanyway.
A lot to think about. I really liked the lecture I went to today. It was on the Implicit Association Test and racism, Barack Obama, social psychology, conflict, Pokemon... several of the interesting things in life!! And the woman who spoke is a candidate for a position at the school which is tres cool! And so far, Psych Stats isn't compleeeetely horrible. Sometimes I feel like an idiot... She's speaking and I'm understanding the words but it takes a lot of concentration for me to really get it... However, Tickle is very nice (how horrible would it be to have that last name and not be??) and helpful and is aware that almost everyone in there absolutely hates math/is only there because they have to be, so she's very accommodating in that regard. Spanish is really frustrating. I hate not knowing/knowing at the same time. Or not being able to find the word, or thinking a Portuguese word translates nicely into Spanish to discover that I knew the word all along/the Portuguese word is nothing like the Spanish.
I'm taking Math for Social Justice to fulfill my math requirement. How awesome is that?? Kung seems very enthusiastic and genuine and just an overall cool guy who bikes to work and fights for partner benefits on campus and knocks on doors the day before election and wants to change the world using math!! I can't help but be a biiiit cynical and be like... really, the world's fucked up... we're not going to change it with one math class but god damn it I'm loving it that this guy actually cares and is so passionate about it. And we played outside as though we were six year olds for my Environmental Perspectives class, so I think I will enjoy that.
Last point, I swear. I have been listening to Azure Ray a lot a lot lately. As in... for the past... four days? Five days? I find it difficult to keep track of days, lately. Anyway. I'm in love. Seriously. Everytime I turn on my iPod (except for when I was listening to the podcast which I must finish!!), it's the only thing I want to hear. Over and over and over. Auditory sex? I think so. Hmm. Actually. More like auditory cuddling. Yes. Very harmonious auditory cuddling.
And that is my completely disjointed, random, exclamation point filled update!! I think... I haven't been going through mood extremes lately. And by lately I think I mean a few months. I don't know if it's the (relatively) recent change of location or new people or better conversations or less stress or what but... I like it. I think... hmm. I know happiness is something very... elusive and I am hesitant to say this, but god damn it, Kurt Vonnegut said: "And I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point, 'If this isn’t nice, I don’t know what is.'" So. This is nice. Very, very nice. :)
And! A real new year's/become-a-better-person resolution! Learn on my own more often. This kind of happened accidentally with a bunch of stuff happening in the last two days coming together so I'm thinking I should just go with it and encourage this! With my recent discovery of the Skeptics' Guide to the Universe podcast (aided by Gerard basically forcing me to listen to it), the newly formed book club, the recently formed goal to speak Spanish with Shannon immediately preceding/following Spanish class, and my hot-off-the-press determination to go to as many interesting lectures offered on campus as possible, I think I'm on the right track. I'm not sure that sentence is completely grammatically correct, but c'est la vie!!
And! Get over my pathetic inability to read/watch something upsetting! I will: read/watch Into the Wild, reread/finish The Time Traveler's Wife (through book club!), read 100 Years of Solitude, eventually buy and read/watch The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, reread Everything Is Illuminated in the next week... so much stuff!! If this doesn't put me through a recession-like depression, I don't know what will!
Even though I'm only taking 15 credits (and the violin instructor hasn't emailed me back!!), I am really excited for this semester. Maybe I'll take some summer classes at HCC to catch up/get an English class or two/get more credits/take a course I probably normally wouldn't at school since it wouldn't fulfill a requirement... I want to start learning more things for the sake of learning them and enjoying it instead of just to say I know something about something or another. I'm sorry if I'm not making much sense. It's making some sort of sense in my head. And! The idea of auditing a class is becoming very very appealing... Particularly Philosophy 101... I might look into doing that this semester if there's time... Hmmm...
And... this is an idea I don't think I've vocalized (or even really formed in my mind). Maybe I've just had a feeling that I never really gave my thought to... But I don't know how I feel about going back to work at The Tomato Palace in the summer. I feel like there's so much stress associated with that job and it's a bit frustrating. I love it and if I serve I'm sure I'll make better money. But who knows. The only other place I could imagine working would be a restaurant (which doesn't help the high stress factor) or possibly Border's/Barnes & Noble or something, though I feel like one day I'll work at a bookstore and be highly disappointed. Maybe the library!! Hmm. I don't know how I'd feel about monotony, though. It'd be a nice break from the STRESS! STRESS! STRESS! AHH NO TABLES! AHH THE FOOD! AHH BITCHES! AHH DIRTY BATHROOMS! AHH! AHH! AHH! I kind of go through when I go to work now, I guess. Not that it's all bad. Just... hmm. I think I just want to be as far away from Jason Johnson as possible. Aaaaaanyway.
A lot to think about. I really liked the lecture I went to today. It was on the Implicit Association Test and racism, Barack Obama, social psychology, conflict, Pokemon... several of the interesting things in life!! And the woman who spoke is a candidate for a position at the school which is tres cool! And so far, Psych Stats isn't compleeeetely horrible. Sometimes I feel like an idiot... She's speaking and I'm understanding the words but it takes a lot of concentration for me to really get it... However, Tickle is very nice (how horrible would it be to have that last name and not be??) and helpful and is aware that almost everyone in there absolutely hates math/is only there because they have to be, so she's very accommodating in that regard. Spanish is really frustrating. I hate not knowing/knowing at the same time. Or not being able to find the word, or thinking a Portuguese word translates nicely into Spanish to discover that I knew the word all along/the Portuguese word is nothing like the Spanish.
I'm taking Math for Social Justice to fulfill my math requirement. How awesome is that?? Kung seems very enthusiastic and genuine and just an overall cool guy who bikes to work and fights for partner benefits on campus and knocks on doors the day before election and wants to change the world using math!! I can't help but be a biiiit cynical and be like... really, the world's fucked up... we're not going to change it with one math class but god damn it I'm loving it that this guy actually cares and is so passionate about it. And we played outside as though we were six year olds for my Environmental Perspectives class, so I think I will enjoy that.
Last point, I swear. I have been listening to Azure Ray a lot a lot lately. As in... for the past... four days? Five days? I find it difficult to keep track of days, lately. Anyway. I'm in love. Seriously. Everytime I turn on my iPod (except for when I was listening to the podcast which I must finish!!), it's the only thing I want to hear. Over and over and over. Auditory sex? I think so. Hmm. Actually. More like auditory cuddling. Yes. Very harmonious auditory cuddling.
And that is my completely disjointed, random, exclamation point filled update!! I think... I haven't been going through mood extremes lately. And by lately I think I mean a few months. I don't know if it's the (relatively) recent change of location or new people or better conversations or less stress or what but... I like it. I think... hmm. I know happiness is something very... elusive and I am hesitant to say this, but god damn it, Kurt Vonnegut said: "And I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point, 'If this isn’t nice, I don’t know what is.'" So. This is nice. Very, very nice. :)