so obviously a train wreck, save her.
breathe. just stop and think. you're okay. it's almost over with. give it a few more weeks maybe? okay hopefully it'll be over soon. relax. breathe.
okay so i don't know why i still feel this way. there's this boy. and when i say "boy" i mean BOY. he's not worthy of being called a man, let alone gentleman. i cant stand it. im disgusted by him, yet in love with him. why? i have no idea. he's a charmer. that's basically it. and why, someone please tell me why, do i fall for it every single time?! i dont know what to do with myself!! i'm driving myself crazy. i have mixed emotions. i'm torn. i'm so bothered by all of this. i've really gotten myself into a mess. i'm constantly worried. i can't even explain it. why am i doing this to myself? what is wrong with me? actually, what's wrong with him!? why is everything so difficult?
these songs say it best i guess:
Just like an angel, you're gonna make me fly
Into your arms, you're wrapping me up so tight
You had me crawlin so bad
Had me heels over head
You got me easy, you got me easy
Tangled up in my head
Quit trying to hold and to help me
Cuz we're already beautiful
So dont make me cry
Cuz this love dont feel so right
You cant push a river
You cant make me fall
But you can make me unreachable
-----
(Beating hearts baby)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby)
Let me in your arms to feel
(Beating hearts baby)
The beating of your heart, baby
(Beating hearts baby)
The beating of your heart, baby
You, you want nothing to do with me
You, you want nothing to do with me
I, I don't know what to do with you
'Cause you don't know what you do to me
-----
Our seperation has it's faults
But I don't wanna leave it all
So write the letters in teary ink
I just need some time to think
And I just need some time to breathe
Baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
Baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
Baby just walk away
You know I can't stay
There's no easy way to say goodbye
So baby just say goodnight
We're in a spell that never ends
The empty hourglass wore me thin
So let the phone do it's work
Your voice is heaven
But it hurts
Your words are memories
But they burn
-----
Hey, baby my nose is getting big
I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs
Now you say your trust's getting weaker
Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper
And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson
And I really think you ought to know the truth
Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more
But after I did it I don't know what I did it for
I admit that I have been a little immature
Fucking with your heart like I was the predator
In my book of lies I was the editor
And the author
I forged my signature
And now I apologise for what I did to you
And I lie and I lie and I lie til there's no turning back
I don't know why, (and I lie and I lie til I don't know who I am)
-----
You and your museum of lovers
The precious collection you've housed in your covers
My simpleness threatened by my own admission
And the bags are much too heavy
In my insecure condition
My pregnant mind is fat full with envy again
But I still love to wash in your old bathwater
Love to think that you couldn't love another
I can't help it...you're my kind of man
Wanted and adored by attractive women
Bountiful selection at your discretion
I know I'm diving into my own destruction
-----
and that's all i have to say about this for now. <\3
okay so i don't know why i still feel this way. there's this boy. and when i say "boy" i mean BOY. he's not worthy of being called a man, let alone gentleman. i cant stand it. im disgusted by him, yet in love with him. why? i have no idea. he's a charmer. that's basically it. and why, someone please tell me why, do i fall for it every single time?! i dont know what to do with myself!! i'm driving myself crazy. i have mixed emotions. i'm torn. i'm so bothered by all of this. i've really gotten myself into a mess. i'm constantly worried. i can't even explain it. why am i doing this to myself? what is wrong with me? actually, what's wrong with him!? why is everything so difficult?
these songs say it best i guess:
Just like an angel, you're gonna make me fly
Into your arms, you're wrapping me up so tight
You had me crawlin so bad
Had me heels over head
You got me easy, you got me easy
Tangled up in my head
Quit trying to hold and to help me
Cuz we're already beautiful
So dont make me cry
Cuz this love dont feel so right
You cant push a river
You cant make me fall
But you can make me unreachable
-----
(Beating hearts baby)
Baby is this love for real?
(Beating hearts baby)
Let me in your arms to feel
(Beating hearts baby)
The beating of your heart, baby
(Beating hearts baby)
The beating of your heart, baby
You, you want nothing to do with me
You, you want nothing to do with me
I, I don't know what to do with you
'Cause you don't know what you do to me
-----
Our seperation has it's faults
But I don't wanna leave it all
So write the letters in teary ink
I just need some time to think
And I just need some time to breathe
Baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
Baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
Baby just walk away
You know I can't stay
There's no easy way to say goodbye
So baby just say goodnight
We're in a spell that never ends
The empty hourglass wore me thin
So let the phone do it's work
Your voice is heaven
But it hurts
Your words are memories
But they burn
-----
Hey, baby my nose is getting big
I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs
Now you say your trust's getting weaker
Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper
And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson
And I really think you ought to know the truth
Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more
But after I did it I don't know what I did it for
I admit that I have been a little immature
Fucking with your heart like I was the predator
In my book of lies I was the editor
And the author
I forged my signature
And now I apologise for what I did to you
And I lie and I lie and I lie til there's no turning back
I don't know why, (and I lie and I lie til I don't know who I am)
-----
You and your museum of lovers
The precious collection you've housed in your covers
My simpleness threatened by my own admission
And the bags are much too heavy
In my insecure condition
My pregnant mind is fat full with envy again
But I still love to wash in your old bathwater
Love to think that you couldn't love another
I can't help it...you're my kind of man
Wanted and adored by attractive women
Bountiful selection at your discretion
I know I'm diving into my own destruction
-----
and that's all i have to say about this for now. <\3