well then....
okay so im really bored... and pissed cause i opened my big mouth.. yeah im mad at myself.. but everyone makes mistakes so ill be over it by tomorrow i hope. well anyways... im listening to michael jackson now haha its great... you know what? bryan=ahh *sigh*!! lol i love spending time with him... he's THE BEST!!!!!!! and i get to see him tomorrow!! =D im so happy! yeah... i feel really tired.. and shit i gotta do my hw.. yeah anyways. life sucks.. jk it doesnt.. i just felt like i needed to say that. well really.. i suck.. cause i cant seem to do anything right... im always... ALWAYS making mistakes.. and saying stupid things.. and making a fool of myself.. and i try to do things right... but im just a messed up kid.. i seriously have a problem.. i dont know what it is... but i really need some help. like im not mental.. im just not happy as often as i used to be. i get mad really easly lately, which sucks. i miss chelc soooooooo much!! she made me happy!!! i cant wait to see her in december!! and leave this shitty life behind for a week. and i get to see JORDAN!! haha.. that kid's a character.. he's great... well really i shouldnt be calling him a kid cause he's kinda older than me haha. but yeah.. he's so cool.. he makes me laugh... cause he's so funny... looking.. jk thats so lame.. no really he is funny tho. but yeah.. i wish summer never had to end... especially when chelc was here.. that was the best!! we had a blast together!! and next summer will be SOOOO rad cause ill be driving.. hells yeah bitches!! =D itll be great!! me and her can go cruisin anytime we want.. anyWHERE we want!!! *yay* im getting excited just thinking about it!!! well yeah... i gotta go to bed so i can wake up to see <333 bryan <3333 my lover tomorrow!!! he's so awesome... how the hell did i get so lucky?!?!!? anyways.. goodnight.
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