Up and Down...
Up and down and all around - stop the roller coaster! i'm ready to get off now!
Things have been hectic of late. my dear Gramma has been in the hospital for a week, and things took a turn for the worse on Mon/Tues. The doctors insisted that she wouldn't survive if she had another heart attack, and recommended a Triple Bypass immediately. Gramma is a feisty, fiery spirit. i sometimes wish i had more of her spunk... i remember being terrified of authority in school, and when the attendance office screwed up my record, she marched me in there by the hand and gave those ladies the 'what for'. i was in awe of her, and i always have been. When she heard what the doctors had to say, she bravely said, "I'm going for it!" What a woman. We spent Tues. night in a state of nervous wait until 7 hours later; the heroic doctor came out to let us know she made it through. Never was there a louder and longer sigh of relief. i stayed by my Mom's side all night until we were relieved for a quick 3 hour nap.
As if that isn't enough, one of my uncle's is still bitter about the last months of my Grandpa’s life that were spent in misery in a hospital bed, and he's giving both my Mom and my other uncle a lot of unnecessary grief. Watching them fight this out, and listening to him play the martyr, i begin to panic about the way things will go when my Mom is in the same position years down the line. She and my Gramma are both heavy smokers, and if my Gramma's condition is any indication of what she may go through.... i just couldn't go through that without my sisters. i'm making it my personal mission to learn from their mistakes.
So yeah. All that along with my album coming out. i want to be excited and promote it. i want to be able to be excited about my upcoming birthday. i feel raw. i want to hide from the world. i feel upside down.
Apologies if i don't respond to you right away. i hope things will calm down in the next week. Your well wishes and friendship are VERY appreciated, right now and always.