Nov 14, 2006 19:59
I've been getting a lot of questions about this bisexual thing, so I'll try to explain it a little more. Yes, I occasionally enjoy the homosexuality. This actually was news to less people than I expected (No, not because I act gay, actually I seem to have mentioned it in casual conversation). Theoretically, it would be great if I were gay. I mean, it makes my job a lot easier and the role I play in that domain is certainly more natural, but we have one little problem.
I'm still straight.
I seek out relationships with females and I'm sexually attracted to them. I just occasionally have . . . other . . . desires. So you could call me straight with the occasional gay dalliance, but really aren't you just calling me bisexual? I think yes.
Additionally, I cannot ever be attracted to a guy I actually know. So if you're my gay friend with a big gay crush on me, you're SOL. Sorry about that. The good news is we're still friends.
When I describe the whole paradigm this way, I do sometimes get the "So you're not really gay, then." I don't know. I seem to exist in some strange nebulous zone where no one really wants to identify with me. Either way I'm going to have an open discussion about it, because it's important for me to figure out where my identity really is and how I can go about not repressing large portions of my sexuality.