Can't believe this could be the end
So much is going on right now...I don't know if I am coming or going. I am not gonna pretned that people actually will read this or that they will care but I dunno. So new boyfriend right...going well as far as I can tell. I think hes amazing and i can't wait for this to get started or finished. I want him to get here and decide if he wants me so then I can really give myself whole heartidly to him or I can get my heart back completly. I have been packing ice around my heart for so long now that I am afraid I don't know how to love anymore or that I am not good enough to love or be loved in return. Still no job but whatever to that..cause miraculously help wanted signs have gone up but in all the wrong places. I ahve to find another place to live this week so then i have someplace to go to after ricky gets here. We are gonna stay in Ann Arbor for the first 3 days hes here and then from tehre i have no idea. I hate confusing ass shit i like shit to be PLANNED...I MEAN PLANNED!Oh well....so I ahve some stuff to ask you people if you actually read this...I NEED to show Matt some cool shit when he is here. Any ideas? He coming to menjos adn to necto so everyone will get to meet him and we are gonna have sex in the arb but other then that ia m clueless leave a message thanks