the way it all is
I dont really think i have updated this stupid thing for monthes. Thought I should let all my nonfriends know how i was just incase they cared,which i know some do and some dont.
So I moved from my dad's house again....I was dating a really awesome guy named Chris who was alittle screwed up but so my type and i could have been like way in love with him but his lifestyle was not condustive to mine. Shit happens we remain friends. I was talking to a guy who played for notre dame for a few monthes to who was very great. The total package ...except he lived kinda far away and now hes dating the stupid girl off of the MTV show laguna beach...LC for all those who follow the show. So i moved out from dad's house and now am proud to be GRADE A trailor trash. A real life bauette! oh well ...its mine..no one to tell me to get the fuck out right? So living in my magical trailor land that i do ...I have had some serious boy company. I was dating a guy out here named Pete...due to his crappy name and lack of good loving skills it was way over before it started. Oh well i wasnt crazy about him./ AND YOU ALL KNOW HOW I AM WHEN I REALLY REALLY LIKE SOMEONE> there was no gushing or talking or stressing. it was alot of letting him take me to dinner and cuddling. My job sucks but I am looking for a new one and may have found the most splendid Star job in the world. An art gallery in fernadale of all places !lol and they play hardcore music i can keep my piercings and wear jeans. HOW FAB!
so I guess i should say a few words since there has been some monthes since the break because none of you really asked or cared about my feelings...
I think that what happened was the right thing. I needed to grow up and see the things i should have been doing. I also needed to be doing some straight things and there was no end in sight of the faghaging ending,although i do get out to the bars once in awhile to see some people and stuff like that. It was the best experience i have ever had. I saw a complelty different world and i am thankful for being able to have met the people i have met and having been able to see and contribute the things i have. Life is much easier these days. My ability to be happy is growing everyday and hapiness is in my near future i think. I need to make me happy. noone else can
So a list of love....
Mitch- I dont have to tell you how much i still love you and care about you and wish you were around. I met someone who has the same giggle as you and everytime i here it , it makes me happy then sad. Im always here for you no matter what. Distance is only physical space...my feelings for you my bestfriend will never change. Chin up and dont be sad...prince charming is out there....you will get him when you are both ready.
Ricky- thank you for your hospitality. I appreciate it more then words. Thank you for teaching me to sing like noone is listening to my god awful voice...and dance like no one is watching. You help create this princess. You being fun and carefree rubbed off i guess...just alittle more then it should have i guess. good luck in acting and such...when your famous some day i hope when i come find you for my autograph i dont get fucking snubbed. You were a great friend and i miss you alot. It was nice seeing you at necto and you saying hello made me feel better about us not being friends. goodluck with your boy...dont be a bitch to him....thats what my mom always says to me LOL so its good advice...NO PMSING ALOUD. much love
Adam- Friends since high school. One of the only girls to ever touch that spectacular penis of yours! Although we dont talk much I think I can still call you a friend and am therfore not gonna say much other then its been awhile and i miss you. Call me and we can have dinner.
Jon Kung- Just as it was getting good sweetie haha. well i guess not to good...cause you dont want to talk anymore. But it was very nice to get to know you this summer. You are by far the most interesting person i have ever met. and the most beautiful asian man alive. It was nice seeing you at necto. thank you for being poilte and saying hello. I always knew you and my nick would date....timing i guess right. you guys Im sure make everyone jealous and sick to their stomaches. the passion in that relationship i bet is great. I wish you well and goodluck with everything. I also thought you should know you are the only one i have any real respect for because you were the only one to man up so to speak to tell me what was going on. Thank you for that Jon .....lots of love and kisses hehe cause i know you hate them
Nick Y- Its been forever. and i dont know how you feel but I am guessing just like ricky does. I looked up to you and in alot of ways we were alike. Thank you for being there for me when i needed to talk and when i was sick. You were a great friend i wish i could have got to know you better. Goodluck with teaching I know you will be great. I wish my teachers had pretty green eyes like yours...I maybe would have payed attention more. I always said i was gonna marry a green eyed boy. ever feel straight...you know my number. You were the one i always said i would have dated had you not been a bitch like me hehe goodluck nick. Mwauh!
who am i forgetting?
of course
Nicky- thought i would forget you? YA RIGHT! So where we stand i have no clue...talking here and there ...maybe see eachother ...i dunno. all i know is i miss living down the street from you so to speak cause your second home is cottage inn. Thanks for the free pizzas over the summer i might have died had i not had them. I miss you terribly. Your sense of humor , your style...your classy ass! I hope that i can at least call you a friend still....and maybe a good friend. thank you for always being there for me. I hope i brought half as much to your life as you brought to mine. Our inside jokes are endless...our drunken nights few and far between but never halfassed....nelly furtado wishes and Soy chai dreams..goodluck with jon . Have gorgeous asian babies together and i want to come to the wedding. I hope school and work are going well for you. busy busy. i admire your schedule...i couldnt do it and i know it. talk to you soon my love kisses and hugs and bootyshakes
I hope everyone got something from all this...I kow i did...a headache..and handcramps haha just kidding much love and i aint mad atcha
Forever yours
the VERY retired faghag of the year
So I moved from my dad's house again....I was dating a really awesome guy named Chris who was alittle screwed up but so my type and i could have been like way in love with him but his lifestyle was not condustive to mine. Shit happens we remain friends. I was talking to a guy who played for notre dame for a few monthes to who was very great. The total package ...except he lived kinda far away and now hes dating the stupid girl off of the MTV show laguna beach...LC for all those who follow the show. So i moved out from dad's house and now am proud to be GRADE A trailor trash. A real life bauette! oh well ...its mine..no one to tell me to get the fuck out right? So living in my magical trailor land that i do ...I have had some serious boy company. I was dating a guy out here named Pete...due to his crappy name and lack of good loving skills it was way over before it started. Oh well i wasnt crazy about him./ AND YOU ALL KNOW HOW I AM WHEN I REALLY REALLY LIKE SOMEONE> there was no gushing or talking or stressing. it was alot of letting him take me to dinner and cuddling. My job sucks but I am looking for a new one and may have found the most splendid Star job in the world. An art gallery in fernadale of all places !lol and they play hardcore music i can keep my piercings and wear jeans. HOW FAB!
so I guess i should say a few words since there has been some monthes since the break because none of you really asked or cared about my feelings...
I think that what happened was the right thing. I needed to grow up and see the things i should have been doing. I also needed to be doing some straight things and there was no end in sight of the faghaging ending,although i do get out to the bars once in awhile to see some people and stuff like that. It was the best experience i have ever had. I saw a complelty different world and i am thankful for being able to have met the people i have met and having been able to see and contribute the things i have. Life is much easier these days. My ability to be happy is growing everyday and hapiness is in my near future i think. I need to make me happy. noone else can
So a list of love....
Mitch- I dont have to tell you how much i still love you and care about you and wish you were around. I met someone who has the same giggle as you and everytime i here it , it makes me happy then sad. Im always here for you no matter what. Distance is only physical space...my feelings for you my bestfriend will never change. Chin up and dont be sad...prince charming is out there....you will get him when you are both ready.
Ricky- thank you for your hospitality. I appreciate it more then words. Thank you for teaching me to sing like noone is listening to my god awful voice...and dance like no one is watching. You help create this princess. You being fun and carefree rubbed off i guess...just alittle more then it should have i guess. good luck in acting and such...when your famous some day i hope when i come find you for my autograph i dont get fucking snubbed. You were a great friend and i miss you alot. It was nice seeing you at necto and you saying hello made me feel better about us not being friends. goodluck with your boy...dont be a bitch to him....thats what my mom always says to me LOL so its good advice...NO PMSING ALOUD. much love
Adam- Friends since high school. One of the only girls to ever touch that spectacular penis of yours! Although we dont talk much I think I can still call you a friend and am therfore not gonna say much other then its been awhile and i miss you. Call me and we can have dinner.
Jon Kung- Just as it was getting good sweetie haha. well i guess not to good...cause you dont want to talk anymore. But it was very nice to get to know you this summer. You are by far the most interesting person i have ever met. and the most beautiful asian man alive. It was nice seeing you at necto. thank you for being poilte and saying hello. I always knew you and my nick would date....timing i guess right. you guys Im sure make everyone jealous and sick to their stomaches. the passion in that relationship i bet is great. I wish you well and goodluck with everything. I also thought you should know you are the only one i have any real respect for because you were the only one to man up so to speak to tell me what was going on. Thank you for that Jon .....lots of love and kisses hehe cause i know you hate them
Nick Y- Its been forever. and i dont know how you feel but I am guessing just like ricky does. I looked up to you and in alot of ways we were alike. Thank you for being there for me when i needed to talk and when i was sick. You were a great friend i wish i could have got to know you better. Goodluck with teaching I know you will be great. I wish my teachers had pretty green eyes like yours...I maybe would have payed attention more. I always said i was gonna marry a green eyed boy. ever feel straight...you know my number. You were the one i always said i would have dated had you not been a bitch like me hehe goodluck nick. Mwauh!
who am i forgetting?
of course
Nicky- thought i would forget you? YA RIGHT! So where we stand i have no clue...talking here and there ...maybe see eachother ...i dunno. all i know is i miss living down the street from you so to speak cause your second home is cottage inn. Thanks for the free pizzas over the summer i might have died had i not had them. I miss you terribly. Your sense of humor , your style...your classy ass! I hope that i can at least call you a friend still....and maybe a good friend. thank you for always being there for me. I hope i brought half as much to your life as you brought to mine. Our inside jokes are endless...our drunken nights few and far between but never halfassed....nelly furtado wishes and Soy chai dreams..goodluck with jon . Have gorgeous asian babies together and i want to come to the wedding. I hope school and work are going well for you. busy busy. i admire your schedule...i couldnt do it and i know it. talk to you soon my love kisses and hugs and bootyshakes
I hope everyone got something from all this...I kow i did...a headache..and handcramps haha just kidding much love and i aint mad atcha
Forever yours
the VERY retired faghag of the year