Mistake, Force, Lust, and End
Title: Mistake, Force, Lust, and End
Author: keeconk
Pairing: Nishikato
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 4,046
Disclaimer: as for now.. they're still not mine..
Summary: If someone said that anything could happen in just four weeks, Ryo and Shige would be the first ones to agree with it. For them, the past four weeks of their life were a little bit unexpected.
A.N.: it's unbeta'ed..
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Week 1
~ That night
Ryo just sat on his bed quietly. Knees were up against his chest and his arms were wrapped on them. He knew well that all this time he wanted to do what he just did so badly but never ever in his mind he expected it to feel so wrong. Miscalculating everything would be one good word to explain the major mistake he did. He didn’t calculate how the other guy would feel about it.
Turning his head to the body that was just as naked as his, there was a glimpse of guilty written all over his face; especially with the current state of the other guy. The younger guy was just lying there with body facing down and eyes stared into spaces. His breathing had evened itself but his face looked really blank, as if he was just a body without a soul.
“Shige..” said Ryo at the end.
Silence. Shige didn’t reply to the call nor did he show any change in his expression. Crawling to the side of the other guy, Ryo tried his best to find courage to apologise, although he knew well that what he did was just too absurd. “Shige, I’m sorry..” he mumbled with a hand touching Shige’s shoulder.
It wasn’t such a surprise to Ryo when Shige shoved his hand away and curled at the edge of the bed, sending a leave-me-alone attitude to him. And Ryo caught the signal well. The older man decided to just give Shige some alone time as he pulled the blanket and covered Shige’s somewhat trembling body with it. He had no right to say anything any further after all.
Ryo grabbed his boxers and took one of his pillows before walking out from his own room. It seemed that his couch would be his company for the night.
~Earlier on..
As far as he concerned, Ryo was pretty sure that he was a perfectly normal sexy Osakan; and straight of course. People could just assume that he was such a player and that he was just playing around with that long list of ex girlfriends that he had, but he knew he wasn’t something as rubbish as that. It wasn’t his fault that all of them thought that Ryo wasn’t taking them seriously. In fact, never even once Ryo viewed any of his relationship as not serious.
He believed that stepping into a relationship would mean a huge deal of commitment and understanding, as well as trust. Ryo, not calling his girlfriend every single hour didn’t mean that he didn’t care about her. Buying his girlfriend some expensive stuff was also not because he saw her as some kind of accessories that had to be as flashy as him and was just to make sure that she would stick around. What was wrong with giving her some glamour stuff just because he loved her?
Other than that, making fun of Shige would be something that his bandmates would associate him with. Ryo didn’t really mind anyway. Who wouldn’t make fun of that guy if there was just so much things that Ryo could point out just to embarrass Shige?! Especially with the hopeless expression that Shige would put on his face on every single mocking Ryo did.
It wasn’t until one fine day, instead of those pleading eyes and hopelessness that he always pulled out, Shige replied Ryo with a very simple and yet somewhat depressed, “Please, Nishikido-kun. Stop.”
Only then Ryo realised that sometimes he went too far. That sometimes Shige wasn’t in a good state to be able to take all those mocking and teasing that Ryo did almost every time he saw the younger guy. He was kind of stunned with the way Shige said it. It was as if the law student suffered from what Ryo said and that it was torturing to listen to Ryo’s sharp comment.
When Ryo did finally stop making fun of Shige for about a week, he started to notice different side of Shige that he never did notice before. Simple stuff like how serious Shige would look like when he was concentrating on his reading, or how confidence he looked like with his guitar on his hand. Before he knew it, instead of mocking Shige every single time he met him (although he still did occasionally), smiling at the other guy would be the first thing that he did.
Being attracted to the same sex wasn’t even something that had even crossed his mind before, at least not until Shige changed his hair style again. When he heard from Koyama about it, he was all prepared with a long list of possible mocking phrases he could use; only to then found himself dumbfounded when Shige entered the room. He even could only nod in agreement when Koyama said it suited Shige’s face structure well.
At the end of the day, Ryo invited Shige for a drink in the small little bar near his apartment, not just the two of them, Yamapi tagged along too. It was meant to be just like any other normal drink the three of them always had until Yamapi needed to go and pick his sister up from her work place.
The two of them drank and chatted for quite some time, long enough to make them drunk. As well as drunk enough to make Ryo dragged Shige to his apartment. And of course, Shige was weak enough to actually let Ryo get under his pants. They were both consciously knew what they were doing, but none of them were conscious enough to stop.
Week 2
~That night
Shige’s fingers were digging hard to the couch, so hard that he could feel the wooden frame under all of those fluffy surfaces. His breathing was uneven and his face looked as if he was trying not to show how painful it was. With teeth biting his lower lip, Shige could feel how forceful and hard those pounds were. He wanted to push Ryo away. Kick him or slap him; anything just to make him stop. He wasn’t drunk and logically speaking, he definitely had the capability to push the other guy away. Yet, the grips on his wrists were so tight that he couldn’t even move, nor did he have the confidence that he would be able to kick Ryo with mind being drawn away to what the older guy was doing to him.
“Shige..” Ryo whispered. “Say something.. please..”
The younger guy could only turn his head away, trying to avoid Ryo’s kisses. He didn’t want those kisses, just as much as he didn’t want to be there in the older guy’s apartment and being fucked by Ryo again. His vision was spinning and he didn’t really understand why he had to agree to come over for a talk.
“S-stop..” was all Shige could say, almost inaudible.
“Why?” asked Ryo.
There was no answer. Shige could just say because they weren’t supposed to do what they were doing or maybe something like it wasn’t right. They were both guys for fuck sake, and bandmates to make it worse. They weren’t drunk like they were on the previous week, adding more reason why they shouldn’t be doing something like that at all. But yet silence was all that Shige gave to Ryo. He couldn’t answer him back. He couldn’t answer Ryo back because he felt himself coming.
Ryo stopped when the white warm liquid from Shige stained both of their shirts as he let go of Shige’s wrists. There was once again an apologetic expression on the other guy’s face, the same exact expression that Shige saw the previous week. He wanted to be mad, but the look that Ryo was giving him somehow made him reluctant to do so. Pushing Ryo away slowly, Shige tried his best to avoid the other guy’s gaze.
“I’m l-leaving..” he said simply. The law student pulled up his boxer and jeans, buttoned it up, grabbed his jacket, and left the Osakan alone on his apartment.
~Earlier on..
The first thing that Shige did when he entered NewS dressing room was greeting everyone and making his way to Koyama and Massu. He greeted everyone, including Ryo. He didn’t want it to be obvious that something stupid just happened between him and Ryo. He regretted it and yet believed that it was just because they were dragged by the heat as well as the effect of the booze.
Shige was just like any other normal young man. He went to college (and had a job in the same time), tried his best in everything, and loved writing. And just like any other guys, Shige loved girls. The cute and quiet one would be good. Someone that one day he would protect no matter what. Koyama said it was a good way of thinking, Ryo said it was just rubbish; but really, Shige didn’t really care about what Ryo thought about it anyway.
Speaking of Ryo, although the older guy always made fun of him, Shige didn’t have the slightest hatred towards him. He thought, it was just the way Ryo was and he should just accept him as he was. If Yamapi could stand him, he didn’t see why he couldn’t. It was proved with the fact that among everyone else, he was the one that Ryo or Yamapi often invited for a drink. Although very little he knew that something like what happened the previous week would actually happen.
There were notes. Loads of notes. Shige often found them on his dressing table, on top of his bag, underneath his bento box, and even slipped on his jeans pocket. All of them said one thing, Shige, I’m sorry. Shige knew (or at least assumed) that Ryo was indeed sorry and it just bothered him as much it bothered Shige. But yet, being a coward he was, Shige did nothing but threw them all to the dust bin.
When Ryo finally confronted him face to face, Shige couldn’t avoid it. Ryo said they needed to talk, and unfortunately Shige knew well that they did need to at least sort things up. He thought, they could get some privacy talking about it in Ryo’s apartment, away from his bandmates, and they could come into an agreement as soon as possible. Or so he thought.
Ryo was sorry, and Shige said he forgave him. Things went pretty smoothly. They agreed that none of them should never ever talk about it and they should pretend that it never happened. It was fine until Ryo suddenly said something about him couldn’t stop thinking about it. No, it wasn’t that Ryo couldn’t stop thinking about how wrong the thing that they did was. It was Ryo couldn’t stop thinking about how good it felt.
The next thing Shige knew, he was being pinned down on the couch.
Week 3
~That night
“Shit, Shige. Get your claws off me,” protested Ryo.
“It fucking hurts and how do you expect me to not digging my nails to you?” Shige protested back in a tone that was just as pissed as Ryo.
“I put enough lube, okay?! It’s not my fault that you aren’t used to it, and for your information you said you didn’t mind being topped. So put your freaking fingers else where before my shoulders bleed,” Ryo glared at the person before him.
The glare successfully made Ryo won the argument (or maybe it was just the fact that Ryo argued better). Those fingers left his shoulders and curled themselves on the grey bed sheet instead. Shige said nothing more, and Ryo just continued what he was doing. The sex that they were having at the moment was just as insane as the first sex they had, only somewhat better.
Those humping sounds and the little moans Shige produced were the only things that could be heard at that quiet night in Ryo’s apartment. Okay, probably some little arguments when Ryo accidentally pushed too hard, or when Shige unintentionally kicked Ryo. But overall, Ryo had to admit that it was the best sex he ever had. It was absurd, really, especially with the fact that he was doing it with a guy.
“M-my phone..” Shige mumbled in between their eager, lustful kisses.
“What?” replied Ryo, somehow refused to pull away.
“My phone is vibrating..” the latter tried to push Ryo’s lips away as his eyes glanced at his phone that was on the side table. It was vibrating and the light was flashing, showing Shige an incoming call.
“Tsk. Leave it.”
“No, what if it’s my mom?!” Shige protested as he pushed Ryo away for real.
Ryo clicked his tongue again in annoyance. He trailed down his lips to Shige’s neck before then nibbled on it; and of course, with hips still pounding. Ryo didn’t want to stop of course. Things were getting better and he didn’t want to waste all his effort to get Shige to his bed again just because of one phone call.
“Y-yes?” Shige answered his phone after went into trouble trying to grab them from the table. Ryo’s thrusts made it kind of hard to reach it out. “Kei-chan?! Oh n-no. I’m not bu-..busy..” Shige literally had to whack Ryo’s head as instead of slowing down, Ryo moved even faster.
Ryo just chuckled in amusement as he brought his face to view Shige’s, somehow found it entertaining to disturb Shige’s conversation on the phone. “Eh-ehmm? Panting?! M-me? That’s your imagination, Kei-ch…chan,” Shige threw his eyes to Ryo, shooting an I-am-on-the-freaking-phone-so-stop-pounding glare. Ryo just laughed silently and leaned forward, once again claiming those alluring neck of Shige’s.
“Shit! Don’t bite, damn it! Give me a second, will you?!” Shige cursed as he pushed Ryo away completely. The older guy literally had to cover his face with his pillow to suppress the amused laughs that finally escaped from his mouth as he lied down beside Shige. “No no no. No one else is here. It’s Nana. Nana just bit me. I’m brushing Nana’s teeth right now.”
Ryo’s laugh got louder; and Shige kicked him in the ass. Hard.
~Earlier on..
Ryo knew that he deserved a slap, a hate glare, or anything that went along with that; and he was expecting one of those when he met Shige for their PV shooting. Yet, Shige didn’t do anything but replied his greeting just as if nothing happened. Shige even talked to him normally, asking him simple questions such as where Koyama was, or did Ryo see his iPod or something.
Everything was just so normal that it actually freaked Ryo out. He couldn’t be dreaming about what he did to Shige the other day, right? It felt real, and he definitely remembered that he had to wash his shirt right away after being stained by Shige’s cum. It definitely didn’t make sense to him. Why Shige would act that normal after what happened?
He thought maybe Shige just didn’t want to show that something happened between them to the other members. So when it was just the two of them in the waiting room, Ryo gulped and tried to find some courage to say something to Shige. “I promise I won’t do it again,” he said at the end. Yet, Ryo could only be more freaked out when Shige just went out of the room without saying a thing.
“Maybe you did something wrong,” said Yamapi flatly as he munched into his melon bread.
“I know I did, but I said sorry! He didn’t have to be such a girl by ignoring me like that,” Ryo could only groan in annoyance.
“Oh well, give him some time. Besides, didn’t you guys actually talk to each other just now? He was asking you to help him with his stuck bag’s zipper,” added Yamapi casually.
“That’s the thing, Pi! He’s acting as if nothing happened, but he refused to say anything when I actually said sorry!”
“What happened actually?” Yamapi leaned forward with eyebrows knitted together.
Ryo went silent and decided that he should just drop the topic. Although he was really close with Yamapi, he wouldn’t want his leader to actually find out that he had sex with Shige; twice. He couldn’t afford losing his pride and face in front of Yamapi, among all people. His awesome reputation would definitely scattered into pieces.
Luckily for Ryo, when the two of them were left alone in the waiting room again, Shige approached him and told him that there was nothing to be sorry about. Even more to his surprise, Shige asked something so unexpected that he almost chocked in disbelief. “Ehm.. Wanna have sex again tonight?” the younger guy just scratched his nose awkwardly.
Week 4
~That night
The twirling on his hair was soothing and Shige had to admit that he loved it. Yet, the more Ryo played with his hair, the more he could feel Ryo snuggle closer to him. “I’m reading my notes for goodness sake. Give me some space, will you?!” he complained at the end.
“Geez~.. Why don’t you just study at home then?” Ryo replied back, just as annoyed.
“Oh well, why I can’t just study here?! I’m a regular here anyway.”
“Yeah. A regular in my bed. Not a regular to read your lecture notes in my couch,” complained Ryo again.
Putting down his notes, Shige glared at Ryo. He really had no mood to entertain those little arguments that Ryo always threw to him. “Define in your bed, please?! Because as far as I’m concerned, I’ve been sleeping in you bed almost every single night (literally sleeping, by the way) for the last one week,” said the younger guy, somehow felt really annoyed at Ryo’s childishness.
“My cousin and her husband are staying over in my house with their kids. I can’t concentrate. Besides, you just gave me your apartment’s key. So I thought I can find some peace here, okay?!” explained Shige when Ryo didn’t say anything.
“Well, you know exactly why I gave it to you,” pouted Ryo as he planted a soft kiss on Shige’s lips.
“I know. Now, do you mind? I have test tomorrow.”
“Fine,” the older guy unwrapped his hand from Shige’s shoulder as he stood up and left.
Shige could only sigh, but yet did nothing more. He had a test and that was all he had in mind. He definitely didn’t have time to argue with Ryo just like any other nights he spent there. He could just deal with sulking Ryo later on. After all, Ryo wasn’t that hard to deal with. All Shige needed to do was just throwing himself to Ryo, naked, and the other guy wouldn’t have any more complain.
“Here, to accompany you.”
The taller guy looked up, finding Ryo with a cup of hot chocolate on his hand. Shige just smiled and thanked Ryo as he took the cup and put it on the coffee table. “I’m going to bed now. Don’t forget to off the lights,” said Ryo flatly - didn’t even look at Shige. Shige sighed again. He grabbed Ryo’s hand and pulled him back. Putting his notes down again, Shige pulled Ryo even lower, bringing the other’s face to his, before then pressing their lips together.
“Night..” he whispered.
“……..” Ryo just stared at Shige for awhile. A light soft colour of crimson crept on the older guy’s cheeks. A pretty obvious blush for Shige, really. “N-night.. Y-you better let me fuck you after your test..” he said at the end and turned around, making his way to his bedroom.
Shige just giggled lightly.
~Earlier on..
Shige had a problem. He had a problem to stop. He and Ryo had a problem on stopping themselves from touching each other. They just couldn’t. If they were left alone in the dressing room, it was certain that the next that would happen was either one of them trying to unzip the other’s pants. Or when Ryo was eating his ice cream, Shige had to mentally slap himself to not get turn on by the way Ryo lick that delicious ice cream.
“I have a problem! Serious problem!” Shige literally shook Koyama’s shoulder.
“Chill, Shige. Take a deep breath and let Kei-chan go. You almost kill him,” said Tegoshi as he pulled Shige away from Koyama. Massu just nodded in agreement with Tegoshi as he made sure that Koyama was alright.
“But but but… Wouldn’t you be freaked out when you realise that what you’ve been doing for the last one month was having sex with Ry.. I mean, with your friend? It’s like friends with benefits kind of thing!”
Massu and Tegoshi could only exchange looks with each other, while Koyama blinked in surprised with what Shige just told them. “Having sex? With your friend?” Koyama tried to reconfirm what he just heard.
He should have known better, he thought. Hearing something like that wouldn’t be something that Koyama wanted to hear after all. Not only that he didn’t get the advice that he needed, Tegoshi and Massu had to go into trouble to calm down the super duper freaked out Koyama. And Shige should have known better that the term friends with benefits would only send the oldest guy in NewS into more shock.
“We have problem, Ryo..” said Shige at the end.
“Ha?” Ryo was just dumbfounded to find Shige before his apartment’s room, unannounced.
“We need to stop touching each other,” he said in firm as he stepped inside.
“Eh?”
“We really need to control our needs. We have sex too many times in the past few weeks. More than once a day! Don’t you think that we have a problem here?! I’m pretty sure I can control my self for at least the next three days. I’m sure I can....” he paused. “Of course despite the fact that I love the way you thrust into me. Or those little hickeys that you always give me on my neck. Ah~, and those teases, or that one time when you let me ride you. Probably the blow job you gave me yesterday as well, and of course the taste of your cum when I’m the one that giving you a bl-…”
Shige cursed silently when he realised that he actually just listed out what he loved so much about having sex with Ryo. It was as if the little problem that they had just turned into something comical. He cursed even more when Ryo laughed out loud at him. Really, did he really need to laugh that loud?
But at the end of the day, Shige was glad that he did what he just did. Without him telling Ryo that they had problems, the two of them wouldn’t spend most of their time in Ryo’s apartment, doing everything but sex. Shige got to learn how to cook from the older man, and he even realised that Ryo could actually talk non-stop about his sister’s children or his mom little whines on him hadn’t find a partner, and even on how the whole Kanjani8 just loved to tease Yasuda for being somehow gay (not that he was literally gay though).
When Shige stayed over at Ryo’s place more often just for the sake of staying over, Shige started to feel that he had another problem. He knew that things getting a little deeper lately and he knew that sooner or later he had to tell Ryo about it. Staring into the kitchen sink in front of him, Shige almost jumped in shock when Ryo suddenly wrapped his arms around him from behind.
“Shige, we have a problem..”
“Eh?”
“Big problem..” Ryo added, with a much softer tone.
“What big problem?” Shige gulped. He didn’t expect Ryo to also notice that there was something wrong. Even more unexpected, at the end, Ryo told him first what Shige wanted to tell the older guy. Shige wasn’t sure whether he should be glad that Ryo said it first or whether he should be pissed because he didn’t get the privilege to be the first. Still, those words that came out from Ryo’s mouth were definitely breath taking.
“I think I love you~..”
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Author: keeconk
Pairing: Nishikato
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 4,046
Disclaimer: as for now.. they're still not mine..
Summary: If someone said that anything could happen in just four weeks, Ryo and Shige would be the first ones to agree with it. For them, the past four weeks of their life were a little bit unexpected.
A.N.: it's unbeta'ed..
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Week 1
~ That night
Ryo just sat on his bed quietly. Knees were up against his chest and his arms were wrapped on them. He knew well that all this time he wanted to do what he just did so badly but never ever in his mind he expected it to feel so wrong. Miscalculating everything would be one good word to explain the major mistake he did. He didn’t calculate how the other guy would feel about it.
Turning his head to the body that was just as naked as his, there was a glimpse of guilty written all over his face; especially with the current state of the other guy. The younger guy was just lying there with body facing down and eyes stared into spaces. His breathing had evened itself but his face looked really blank, as if he was just a body without a soul.
“Shige..” said Ryo at the end.
Silence. Shige didn’t reply to the call nor did he show any change in his expression. Crawling to the side of the other guy, Ryo tried his best to find courage to apologise, although he knew well that what he did was just too absurd. “Shige, I’m sorry..” he mumbled with a hand touching Shige’s shoulder.
It wasn’t such a surprise to Ryo when Shige shoved his hand away and curled at the edge of the bed, sending a leave-me-alone attitude to him. And Ryo caught the signal well. The older man decided to just give Shige some alone time as he pulled the blanket and covered Shige’s somewhat trembling body with it. He had no right to say anything any further after all.
Ryo grabbed his boxers and took one of his pillows before walking out from his own room. It seemed that his couch would be his company for the night.
~Earlier on..
As far as he concerned, Ryo was pretty sure that he was a perfectly normal sexy Osakan; and straight of course. People could just assume that he was such a player and that he was just playing around with that long list of ex girlfriends that he had, but he knew he wasn’t something as rubbish as that. It wasn’t his fault that all of them thought that Ryo wasn’t taking them seriously. In fact, never even once Ryo viewed any of his relationship as not serious.
He believed that stepping into a relationship would mean a huge deal of commitment and understanding, as well as trust. Ryo, not calling his girlfriend every single hour didn’t mean that he didn’t care about her. Buying his girlfriend some expensive stuff was also not because he saw her as some kind of accessories that had to be as flashy as him and was just to make sure that she would stick around. What was wrong with giving her some glamour stuff just because he loved her?
Other than that, making fun of Shige would be something that his bandmates would associate him with. Ryo didn’t really mind anyway. Who wouldn’t make fun of that guy if there was just so much things that Ryo could point out just to embarrass Shige?! Especially with the hopeless expression that Shige would put on his face on every single mocking Ryo did.
It wasn’t until one fine day, instead of those pleading eyes and hopelessness that he always pulled out, Shige replied Ryo with a very simple and yet somewhat depressed, “Please, Nishikido-kun. Stop.”
Only then Ryo realised that sometimes he went too far. That sometimes Shige wasn’t in a good state to be able to take all those mocking and teasing that Ryo did almost every time he saw the younger guy. He was kind of stunned with the way Shige said it. It was as if the law student suffered from what Ryo said and that it was torturing to listen to Ryo’s sharp comment.
When Ryo did finally stop making fun of Shige for about a week, he started to notice different side of Shige that he never did notice before. Simple stuff like how serious Shige would look like when he was concentrating on his reading, or how confidence he looked like with his guitar on his hand. Before he knew it, instead of mocking Shige every single time he met him (although he still did occasionally), smiling at the other guy would be the first thing that he did.
Being attracted to the same sex wasn’t even something that had even crossed his mind before, at least not until Shige changed his hair style again. When he heard from Koyama about it, he was all prepared with a long list of possible mocking phrases he could use; only to then found himself dumbfounded when Shige entered the room. He even could only nod in agreement when Koyama said it suited Shige’s face structure well.
At the end of the day, Ryo invited Shige for a drink in the small little bar near his apartment, not just the two of them, Yamapi tagged along too. It was meant to be just like any other normal drink the three of them always had until Yamapi needed to go and pick his sister up from her work place.
The two of them drank and chatted for quite some time, long enough to make them drunk. As well as drunk enough to make Ryo dragged Shige to his apartment. And of course, Shige was weak enough to actually let Ryo get under his pants. They were both consciously knew what they were doing, but none of them were conscious enough to stop.
Week 2
~That night
Shige’s fingers were digging hard to the couch, so hard that he could feel the wooden frame under all of those fluffy surfaces. His breathing was uneven and his face looked as if he was trying not to show how painful it was. With teeth biting his lower lip, Shige could feel how forceful and hard those pounds were. He wanted to push Ryo away. Kick him or slap him; anything just to make him stop. He wasn’t drunk and logically speaking, he definitely had the capability to push the other guy away. Yet, the grips on his wrists were so tight that he couldn’t even move, nor did he have the confidence that he would be able to kick Ryo with mind being drawn away to what the older guy was doing to him.
“Shige..” Ryo whispered. “Say something.. please..”
The younger guy could only turn his head away, trying to avoid Ryo’s kisses. He didn’t want those kisses, just as much as he didn’t want to be there in the older guy’s apartment and being fucked by Ryo again. His vision was spinning and he didn’t really understand why he had to agree to come over for a talk.
“S-stop..” was all Shige could say, almost inaudible.
“Why?” asked Ryo.
There was no answer. Shige could just say because they weren’t supposed to do what they were doing or maybe something like it wasn’t right. They were both guys for fuck sake, and bandmates to make it worse. They weren’t drunk like they were on the previous week, adding more reason why they shouldn’t be doing something like that at all. But yet silence was all that Shige gave to Ryo. He couldn’t answer him back. He couldn’t answer Ryo back because he felt himself coming.
Ryo stopped when the white warm liquid from Shige stained both of their shirts as he let go of Shige’s wrists. There was once again an apologetic expression on the other guy’s face, the same exact expression that Shige saw the previous week. He wanted to be mad, but the look that Ryo was giving him somehow made him reluctant to do so. Pushing Ryo away slowly, Shige tried his best to avoid the other guy’s gaze.
“I’m l-leaving..” he said simply. The law student pulled up his boxer and jeans, buttoned it up, grabbed his jacket, and left the Osakan alone on his apartment.
~Earlier on..
The first thing that Shige did when he entered NewS dressing room was greeting everyone and making his way to Koyama and Massu. He greeted everyone, including Ryo. He didn’t want it to be obvious that something stupid just happened between him and Ryo. He regretted it and yet believed that it was just because they were dragged by the heat as well as the effect of the booze.
Shige was just like any other normal young man. He went to college (and had a job in the same time), tried his best in everything, and loved writing. And just like any other guys, Shige loved girls. The cute and quiet one would be good. Someone that one day he would protect no matter what. Koyama said it was a good way of thinking, Ryo said it was just rubbish; but really, Shige didn’t really care about what Ryo thought about it anyway.
Speaking of Ryo, although the older guy always made fun of him, Shige didn’t have the slightest hatred towards him. He thought, it was just the way Ryo was and he should just accept him as he was. If Yamapi could stand him, he didn’t see why he couldn’t. It was proved with the fact that among everyone else, he was the one that Ryo or Yamapi often invited for a drink. Although very little he knew that something like what happened the previous week would actually happen.
There were notes. Loads of notes. Shige often found them on his dressing table, on top of his bag, underneath his bento box, and even slipped on his jeans pocket. All of them said one thing, Shige, I’m sorry. Shige knew (or at least assumed) that Ryo was indeed sorry and it just bothered him as much it bothered Shige. But yet, being a coward he was, Shige did nothing but threw them all to the dust bin.
When Ryo finally confronted him face to face, Shige couldn’t avoid it. Ryo said they needed to talk, and unfortunately Shige knew well that they did need to at least sort things up. He thought, they could get some privacy talking about it in Ryo’s apartment, away from his bandmates, and they could come into an agreement as soon as possible. Or so he thought.
Ryo was sorry, and Shige said he forgave him. Things went pretty smoothly. They agreed that none of them should never ever talk about it and they should pretend that it never happened. It was fine until Ryo suddenly said something about him couldn’t stop thinking about it. No, it wasn’t that Ryo couldn’t stop thinking about how wrong the thing that they did was. It was Ryo couldn’t stop thinking about how good it felt.
The next thing Shige knew, he was being pinned down on the couch.
Week 3
~That night
“Shit, Shige. Get your claws off me,” protested Ryo.
“It fucking hurts and how do you expect me to not digging my nails to you?” Shige protested back in a tone that was just as pissed as Ryo.
“I put enough lube, okay?! It’s not my fault that you aren’t used to it, and for your information you said you didn’t mind being topped. So put your freaking fingers else where before my shoulders bleed,” Ryo glared at the person before him.
The glare successfully made Ryo won the argument (or maybe it was just the fact that Ryo argued better). Those fingers left his shoulders and curled themselves on the grey bed sheet instead. Shige said nothing more, and Ryo just continued what he was doing. The sex that they were having at the moment was just as insane as the first sex they had, only somewhat better.
Those humping sounds and the little moans Shige produced were the only things that could be heard at that quiet night in Ryo’s apartment. Okay, probably some little arguments when Ryo accidentally pushed too hard, or when Shige unintentionally kicked Ryo. But overall, Ryo had to admit that it was the best sex he ever had. It was absurd, really, especially with the fact that he was doing it with a guy.
“M-my phone..” Shige mumbled in between their eager, lustful kisses.
“What?” replied Ryo, somehow refused to pull away.
“My phone is vibrating..” the latter tried to push Ryo’s lips away as his eyes glanced at his phone that was on the side table. It was vibrating and the light was flashing, showing Shige an incoming call.
“Tsk. Leave it.”
“No, what if it’s my mom?!” Shige protested as he pushed Ryo away for real.
Ryo clicked his tongue again in annoyance. He trailed down his lips to Shige’s neck before then nibbled on it; and of course, with hips still pounding. Ryo didn’t want to stop of course. Things were getting better and he didn’t want to waste all his effort to get Shige to his bed again just because of one phone call.
“Y-yes?” Shige answered his phone after went into trouble trying to grab them from the table. Ryo’s thrusts made it kind of hard to reach it out. “Kei-chan?! Oh n-no. I’m not bu-..busy..” Shige literally had to whack Ryo’s head as instead of slowing down, Ryo moved even faster.
Ryo just chuckled in amusement as he brought his face to view Shige’s, somehow found it entertaining to disturb Shige’s conversation on the phone. “Eh-ehmm? Panting?! M-me? That’s your imagination, Kei-ch…chan,” Shige threw his eyes to Ryo, shooting an I-am-on-the-freaking-phone-so-stop-pounding glare. Ryo just laughed silently and leaned forward, once again claiming those alluring neck of Shige’s.
“Shit! Don’t bite, damn it! Give me a second, will you?!” Shige cursed as he pushed Ryo away completely. The older guy literally had to cover his face with his pillow to suppress the amused laughs that finally escaped from his mouth as he lied down beside Shige. “No no no. No one else is here. It’s Nana. Nana just bit me. I’m brushing Nana’s teeth right now.”
Ryo’s laugh got louder; and Shige kicked him in the ass. Hard.
~Earlier on..
Ryo knew that he deserved a slap, a hate glare, or anything that went along with that; and he was expecting one of those when he met Shige for their PV shooting. Yet, Shige didn’t do anything but replied his greeting just as if nothing happened. Shige even talked to him normally, asking him simple questions such as where Koyama was, or did Ryo see his iPod or something.
Everything was just so normal that it actually freaked Ryo out. He couldn’t be dreaming about what he did to Shige the other day, right? It felt real, and he definitely remembered that he had to wash his shirt right away after being stained by Shige’s cum. It definitely didn’t make sense to him. Why Shige would act that normal after what happened?
He thought maybe Shige just didn’t want to show that something happened between them to the other members. So when it was just the two of them in the waiting room, Ryo gulped and tried to find some courage to say something to Shige. “I promise I won’t do it again,” he said at the end. Yet, Ryo could only be more freaked out when Shige just went out of the room without saying a thing.
“Maybe you did something wrong,” said Yamapi flatly as he munched into his melon bread.
“I know I did, but I said sorry! He didn’t have to be such a girl by ignoring me like that,” Ryo could only groan in annoyance.
“Oh well, give him some time. Besides, didn’t you guys actually talk to each other just now? He was asking you to help him with his stuck bag’s zipper,” added Yamapi casually.
“That’s the thing, Pi! He’s acting as if nothing happened, but he refused to say anything when I actually said sorry!”
“What happened actually?” Yamapi leaned forward with eyebrows knitted together.
Ryo went silent and decided that he should just drop the topic. Although he was really close with Yamapi, he wouldn’t want his leader to actually find out that he had sex with Shige; twice. He couldn’t afford losing his pride and face in front of Yamapi, among all people. His awesome reputation would definitely scattered into pieces.
Luckily for Ryo, when the two of them were left alone in the waiting room again, Shige approached him and told him that there was nothing to be sorry about. Even more to his surprise, Shige asked something so unexpected that he almost chocked in disbelief. “Ehm.. Wanna have sex again tonight?” the younger guy just scratched his nose awkwardly.
Week 4
~That night
The twirling on his hair was soothing and Shige had to admit that he loved it. Yet, the more Ryo played with his hair, the more he could feel Ryo snuggle closer to him. “I’m reading my notes for goodness sake. Give me some space, will you?!” he complained at the end.
“Geez~.. Why don’t you just study at home then?” Ryo replied back, just as annoyed.
“Oh well, why I can’t just study here?! I’m a regular here anyway.”
“Yeah. A regular in my bed. Not a regular to read your lecture notes in my couch,” complained Ryo again.
Putting down his notes, Shige glared at Ryo. He really had no mood to entertain those little arguments that Ryo always threw to him. “Define in your bed, please?! Because as far as I’m concerned, I’ve been sleeping in you bed almost every single night (literally sleeping, by the way) for the last one week,” said the younger guy, somehow felt really annoyed at Ryo’s childishness.
“My cousin and her husband are staying over in my house with their kids. I can’t concentrate. Besides, you just gave me your apartment’s key. So I thought I can find some peace here, okay?!” explained Shige when Ryo didn’t say anything.
“Well, you know exactly why I gave it to you,” pouted Ryo as he planted a soft kiss on Shige’s lips.
“I know. Now, do you mind? I have test tomorrow.”
“Fine,” the older guy unwrapped his hand from Shige’s shoulder as he stood up and left.
Shige could only sigh, but yet did nothing more. He had a test and that was all he had in mind. He definitely didn’t have time to argue with Ryo just like any other nights he spent there. He could just deal with sulking Ryo later on. After all, Ryo wasn’t that hard to deal with. All Shige needed to do was just throwing himself to Ryo, naked, and the other guy wouldn’t have any more complain.
“Here, to accompany you.”
The taller guy looked up, finding Ryo with a cup of hot chocolate on his hand. Shige just smiled and thanked Ryo as he took the cup and put it on the coffee table. “I’m going to bed now. Don’t forget to off the lights,” said Ryo flatly - didn’t even look at Shige. Shige sighed again. He grabbed Ryo’s hand and pulled him back. Putting his notes down again, Shige pulled Ryo even lower, bringing the other’s face to his, before then pressing their lips together.
“Night..” he whispered.
“……..” Ryo just stared at Shige for awhile. A light soft colour of crimson crept on the older guy’s cheeks. A pretty obvious blush for Shige, really. “N-night.. Y-you better let me fuck you after your test..” he said at the end and turned around, making his way to his bedroom.
Shige just giggled lightly.
~Earlier on..
Shige had a problem. He had a problem to stop. He and Ryo had a problem on stopping themselves from touching each other. They just couldn’t. If they were left alone in the dressing room, it was certain that the next that would happen was either one of them trying to unzip the other’s pants. Or when Ryo was eating his ice cream, Shige had to mentally slap himself to not get turn on by the way Ryo lick that delicious ice cream.
“I have a problem! Serious problem!” Shige literally shook Koyama’s shoulder.
“Chill, Shige. Take a deep breath and let Kei-chan go. You almost kill him,” said Tegoshi as he pulled Shige away from Koyama. Massu just nodded in agreement with Tegoshi as he made sure that Koyama was alright.
“But but but… Wouldn’t you be freaked out when you realise that what you’ve been doing for the last one month was having sex with Ry.. I mean, with your friend? It’s like friends with benefits kind of thing!”
Massu and Tegoshi could only exchange looks with each other, while Koyama blinked in surprised with what Shige just told them. “Having sex? With your friend?” Koyama tried to reconfirm what he just heard.
He should have known better, he thought. Hearing something like that wouldn’t be something that Koyama wanted to hear after all. Not only that he didn’t get the advice that he needed, Tegoshi and Massu had to go into trouble to calm down the super duper freaked out Koyama. And Shige should have known better that the term friends with benefits would only send the oldest guy in NewS into more shock.
“We have problem, Ryo..” said Shige at the end.
“Ha?” Ryo was just dumbfounded to find Shige before his apartment’s room, unannounced.
“We need to stop touching each other,” he said in firm as he stepped inside.
“Eh?”
“We really need to control our needs. We have sex too many times in the past few weeks. More than once a day! Don’t you think that we have a problem here?! I’m pretty sure I can control my self for at least the next three days. I’m sure I can....” he paused. “Of course despite the fact that I love the way you thrust into me. Or those little hickeys that you always give me on my neck. Ah~, and those teases, or that one time when you let me ride you. Probably the blow job you gave me yesterday as well, and of course the taste of your cum when I’m the one that giving you a bl-…”
Shige cursed silently when he realised that he actually just listed out what he loved so much about having sex with Ryo. It was as if the little problem that they had just turned into something comical. He cursed even more when Ryo laughed out loud at him. Really, did he really need to laugh that loud?
But at the end of the day, Shige was glad that he did what he just did. Without him telling Ryo that they had problems, the two of them wouldn’t spend most of their time in Ryo’s apartment, doing everything but sex. Shige got to learn how to cook from the older man, and he even realised that Ryo could actually talk non-stop about his sister’s children or his mom little whines on him hadn’t find a partner, and even on how the whole Kanjani8 just loved to tease Yasuda for being somehow gay (not that he was literally gay though).
When Shige stayed over at Ryo’s place more often just for the sake of staying over, Shige started to feel that he had another problem. He knew that things getting a little deeper lately and he knew that sooner or later he had to tell Ryo about it. Staring into the kitchen sink in front of him, Shige almost jumped in shock when Ryo suddenly wrapped his arms around him from behind.
“Shige, we have a problem..”
“Eh?”
“Big problem..” Ryo added, with a much softer tone.
“What big problem?” Shige gulped. He didn’t expect Ryo to also notice that there was something wrong. Even more unexpected, at the end, Ryo told him first what Shige wanted to tell the older guy. Shige wasn’t sure whether he should be glad that Ryo said it first or whether he should be pissed because he didn’t get the privilege to be the first. Still, those words that came out from Ryo’s mouth were definitely breath taking.
“I think I love you~..”
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