The End of 2005...
Thank God! This has indeed been a lousy year. I'd say three
really great things happened this year and the rest was relatively unbearable, with splashes of good times.
Three Great things:
1. I went to Israel. After an emotional Christmas and an utterly heartbreaking January, my spirit was lifted and I found some peace, some great people, and a invaluable connection with my past. The country is passionate, beautiful, welcoming, and rich in culture and heritage..my heritage. It was one of the best experiences of my life.
2. Weddings! The first of my close college friends, Brent, got married in June. The whole weekend was spent with my favorite people, Megs, Marf, and Phil. We danced, we laughed, we ate pizza and drank a lot. I tell ya, when we are on a dance floor...some crazy things happen. And Brent's wedding photographer seem to catch them all, even the Fame dancing! I miss you guys so much and love any chance we have of being together. I also was able to see some friends I met in Israel, Rach, Hil, and Coach. I wish they all lived closer.
3. Christmas and Hanukkah at home with my family. It really was a wonderful holiday. I was with Beth, David and Mario and we spent quality time with Mom, and Grandma and each other. Tim, wished you could have been there. We ate a lot and visited with our closest family friends. Beth commented that she felt like she visited with everyone she ever knew! It was very much like that, but done in a relaxing way. I even got a call from my old friend Josh. Mario and I went over and had a great visit with some old friends. Everyone looked great and we had a really nice time. All weekend we cooked and baked and played and had a very warm and wonderful time.
Some of the "splashes of good times" that I mentioned above were:
Yoav's visit; John's visit; some good times with my best friends here, Phil, Eric, Bryan, Libs, and Diane; my birthday party; Halloween; Mom's visit; etc...
I am grateful for those good times, otherwise, I don't know if I could have survived this year. I won't go into it in detail, but heartbreaks, terrible luck with theatre, terrible shows I was involved in, hot weather, no money, depressing months, etc etc....I am soooo glad it is over!
So, now that it is over, I'm looking at 2006 and wondering what it will hold. I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions. I have in the past and might again in the future, but presently, I think they are bullshit. It is not easy for me to change myself, my behavior, or my lifestyle, I have found that it takes more than the turning of a calender page to instill real, quality change in me. If I'm going to really lose weight, it is because I've come to a point where I am no longer comfortable. If I am going to change the course of a relationship, it is because within that relationship, the time has come to do so. If I am going to look for a new job, it is because it is the right time in my life to move on. None of these things will, necessarily should, be changed because a new year has begun.
I don't know yet what I am doing tonight for New Year's Eve. I have a head cold that is keeping me from being cheerful and sociable. All of my friends seem to be scattered across town at different functions, or scattered across the country. I had a really wonderful New Year's last year and 2005 pretty much sucked. So perhaps if I have a less rambunctious one this year, 2006 will be great!? Eh...worth the try. We'll see. I have a few hours to decide.
I hope everyone has a great New Year's Eve and an even better 2006. It feels like my lucky year...(crossing fingers).
Three Great things:
1. I went to Israel. After an emotional Christmas and an utterly heartbreaking January, my spirit was lifted and I found some peace, some great people, and a invaluable connection with my past. The country is passionate, beautiful, welcoming, and rich in culture and heritage..my heritage. It was one of the best experiences of my life.
2. Weddings! The first of my close college friends, Brent, got married in June. The whole weekend was spent with my favorite people, Megs, Marf, and Phil. We danced, we laughed, we ate pizza and drank a lot. I tell ya, when we are on a dance floor...some crazy things happen. And Brent's wedding photographer seem to catch them all, even the Fame dancing! I miss you guys so much and love any chance we have of being together. I also was able to see some friends I met in Israel, Rach, Hil, and Coach. I wish they all lived closer.
3. Christmas and Hanukkah at home with my family. It really was a wonderful holiday. I was with Beth, David and Mario and we spent quality time with Mom, and Grandma and each other. Tim, wished you could have been there. We ate a lot and visited with our closest family friends. Beth commented that she felt like she visited with everyone she ever knew! It was very much like that, but done in a relaxing way. I even got a call from my old friend Josh. Mario and I went over and had a great visit with some old friends. Everyone looked great and we had a really nice time. All weekend we cooked and baked and played and had a very warm and wonderful time.
Some of the "splashes of good times" that I mentioned above were:
Yoav's visit; John's visit; some good times with my best friends here, Phil, Eric, Bryan, Libs, and Diane; my birthday party; Halloween; Mom's visit; etc...
I am grateful for those good times, otherwise, I don't know if I could have survived this year. I won't go into it in detail, but heartbreaks, terrible luck with theatre, terrible shows I was involved in, hot weather, no money, depressing months, etc etc....I am soooo glad it is over!
So, now that it is over, I'm looking at 2006 and wondering what it will hold. I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions. I have in the past and might again in the future, but presently, I think they are bullshit. It is not easy for me to change myself, my behavior, or my lifestyle, I have found that it takes more than the turning of a calender page to instill real, quality change in me. If I'm going to really lose weight, it is because I've come to a point where I am no longer comfortable. If I am going to change the course of a relationship, it is because within that relationship, the time has come to do so. If I am going to look for a new job, it is because it is the right time in my life to move on. None of these things will, necessarily should, be changed because a new year has begun.
I don't know yet what I am doing tonight for New Year's Eve. I have a head cold that is keeping me from being cheerful and sociable. All of my friends seem to be scattered across town at different functions, or scattered across the country. I had a really wonderful New Year's last year and 2005 pretty much sucked. So perhaps if I have a less rambunctious one this year, 2006 will be great!? Eh...worth the try. We'll see. I have a few hours to decide.
I hope everyone has a great New Year's Eve and an even better 2006. It feels like my lucky year...(crossing fingers).