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Life as usual seems to only become more confusing. How is one suppost to find true love if it seems to not exist? Breaking up with Michael was one of the worst experiances of my life, mainly because I hurt him, and I just cant stand to see someone in pain. I left him with the possibilty that we could work things out, but even I know this wont happen. How can you have a relationship with someone you cant trust? Damn, I never knew being gay would be this so damn confusing. Of course there's always carlton, but he just confuses me, one night the body language is yes, the next its no. Why cant these queens make up their minds? I know the best thing would be for me to remain both single and celibit for a time, while the later is not going to be a problem, the earlier is, For i fear im a serial monogmouist weither i like it or not. At this point in my life everything is spinning and I have no clue what i want. Why cant there be a damn instruction manuel! (I appoligize for the spelling, never been a strong point). I suppose the wize thing would be to throw myself into both school and work, though neither really interest me. I fear im doomed to an eternity of boredom simply because im too intelligent for my own good. Its time for work, the venting will continue later.