Closer call than I ever wanted to have

Jul 08, 2005 11:53

I can't believe I did that. I can't... fuck! I'm usually a lot more careful about these things. Sora was there. I mean, not that I saw him, but we were on the same world. How could I be so stupid? Or how could the Council? I told them where he was needed most, and then I went somewhere else... Maybe he finished early? Maybe they got mixed up. Maybe... enough maybes. It happened, it's over, he didn't see me. He doesn't know I was there. It doesn't matter.

Back at the Castle now. Don't want to see Axel. I wish I hadn't made that deal; I could really use a lock on my door right now. I don't want to see anybody. Making this private. With any luck he won't even know I'm back until later. I just need some time. Just a minute. I need to figure out where I'm going next, and he'd just bother me. I can't stay in here for long. The walls are too white.

Every time I hear his name, I feel him stir inside me. It's like he's waiting--like he wants us to meet. Like he's still trying to win, even after he's been beaten. I know there are gonna be dreams tonight. I--

I keep wondering what would happen if I did mess up one time. If we wound up fighting on the same field. Would he recognize me? Would he even remember who I am? Does he hate me for everything that happened? I know I would.

Can the Keyblade see the darkness inside me?

I don't know. I don't know why I'm writing this here. I... I don't know.
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