call me crazy...better yet, call me emo
i can't sleep
tonight, there's nothing for me to do but think
and i've thought
everything i've ever done, and everything i can see myself ever doing have fallen into two catergories:
things i want and things i need
why is it, in my mind, the only things i want and need will probably never happen? i'm too tired and too fucked up to make things work the way i want or need them to. how could i ever make something that i want AND need work?
i just have fallen into this absolute lull of emotion where i can't think of anything going the "right" way for me. everything i love i fear i'll destroy. everyone i love i feel i'll make them hate me. i'm too self conscious to make things work. or maybe i'm just too pessimistic to even play with the idea i could get what i want and need.
i'm not young enough to actually believe it will happen. and i'm not old enough to actually make it happen. i'm caught in between, and it sucks.
i just wish i could make it work, have all the answers i want and need.
maybe i wouldn't be so frustrated
maybe i could get some sleep
peace out
tonight, there's nothing for me to do but think
and i've thought
everything i've ever done, and everything i can see myself ever doing have fallen into two catergories:
things i want and things i need
why is it, in my mind, the only things i want and need will probably never happen? i'm too tired and too fucked up to make things work the way i want or need them to. how could i ever make something that i want AND need work?
i just have fallen into this absolute lull of emotion where i can't think of anything going the "right" way for me. everything i love i fear i'll destroy. everyone i love i feel i'll make them hate me. i'm too self conscious to make things work. or maybe i'm just too pessimistic to even play with the idea i could get what i want and need.
i'm not young enough to actually believe it will happen. and i'm not old enough to actually make it happen. i'm caught in between, and it sucks.
i just wish i could make it work, have all the answers i want and need.
maybe i wouldn't be so frustrated
maybe i could get some sleep
peace out