i don't know
dear old friend,
i don't think anyone reads these things anymore ... but i had a strange urgency to tell someone about my life right now... because it seems people don't really know or care. not not care, but you know, just too busy with LIFE to know to ask i think. so i guess the easiest thing to do is type it out to a computer...
i meet allllll of my darling sixth graders on monday at "6th grade orientation" where they will learn lovely things like how to work a locker and how to walk through the lunch line... without all those big 7th and 8th graders intimidating them...
i would have met most of them thursday night but i was home sleeping and getting over a 24-hour bug/virus thing that had me in the bathroom most of the night before. so that sucks that i'm kind of a step behind everyone because that's definitely the last place i need to be.
i'm enjoying my growing friendship with christine. it's so different to live with someone. to live with someone other than me. i miss the quiet and free times that living alone allows but i'm surprised at how much i missed having someone to talk to in person and eat with and laugh with.
trout and sophie get along really well. she loves using her womanly ways to tease him and then gets pissed off when he plays too rough (he's about 3 times bigger than she is).
i'm reading wicked by gregory maguire... still. it's very good and quick, but i don't make the time for reading like i used to.
i think a lot about god. despite how i portray it. i'm just so unsure of everything, i can't possibly make sense of it and does it really matter that i make any decisions on things that don't really affect me? like if i say "i believe this"... then so what? nothing will be dramatically different or changed, why do i even want or expect that to happen? i don't know, i guess i have just as many questions and doubts as everyone else, i just don't want to get caught up so much into it that i forget the reality of growing and learning about the world around me. i feel that's partly what i was doing in high school and college. life was quickly pouring past me and all i could do was think about how it all affected me... i don't know, maybe that's what you're supposed to do in those years, egocentrism comes so easily whatever age though, i suppose.
okay i'm going to go take my phenegran (phenergan?) substitute and sleep off the nausea...
love always,
robyn