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LAST NITE WAS UH BAD NITE FER ME...ADE WAS REALLY UPSET AND IT WAS HARD TO SEE HIM LIKE THAT...I DIDNT KNOW WAT TO DO,BUT LEAVE HIM ALONE AND LET HIM FIGURE THINGS OUT AND BE ALONE FER A FEW...SO TIMMY AND I SAT OUT SIDE AND ATE OUR DINNER...ADE JUST KEPTED TELLIN ME WAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO SEE TYLER???WHY IS SHE MAKEN IT SO HARD???I CALLED HER AND TOLD HER I WANTED TO SEE HIM...I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO HELP HIM CUZ GOD KNOWS I WANT TO...I JUST WANT TO RAP MUH ARMS AROUND HIM AND TELL HIM EVERYTHING WILL BE OK,BUT IT WONT NOT UNTIL HE SEES TYLER...
I JUST SIT AND WONDER WAT IF WE NEVER WOULD HAVE MET THEN HE WOULD STILL HAVE TYLER...MAYBE THIS IS ALL MUH FUALT FER THE WAY HE IS FEELIN...THEN I SAID THAT TO HIM AND HE SAID TO ME ME BEIN UNHAPPY WAS NOT YER FUALT...I DONT KNOW IF IT WASNT FER ME HE WOULD STILL HAVE THAT LIL BOY TO HOLD AT NITE AND PLAY WITH AND HUG AND TELL HIM I LOVE YOU...MAYBE I AM A HOME WRECKER =0(...I JUST WANT ADE TO BE HAPPY AND PUT A REAL SMILE ON HIS FACE AND NOT JUST MAKE ME THINK EVERYTHING IS OK...EVERYTHING WITH ADE AND I ARE GREAT I WAS MEANIN HIM AND TYLER...WELL I GUESS I BETTER JUST LIVE IT ALONE AND LET THEM FIGURE IT OUT AINT MUH PLACE TO SAY NOTHIN REALLY...I JUST WISH THEY COULD BOTH PUT THERE PROBS THEY HAD TOGTHER ASIDE,AND GIVE TYLER THE CHANCE TO SAY HOW HE FEELS AND WAT HE WANTS...YA HE IS 4 GUNNA BE 5,BUT THAT DONT MEAN HE DONT KNOW WAT HE WANTS CUZ HE DOES...THEY BOTH NEED TO SIT DOWN WITH TYLER AND EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT THINGS HAVE CHANGED AND THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT...THATS MUH OPION BUT HEY WAT DO I KNOW NOT MUCH CUZ IF I DID I WOULD HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS,BUT GUESS WAT I DONT...I LOVE ADE WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE AND WOULD NEVER GIVE UP ON HIM OR THE THINGS HE WANTS AND LOVES IN HIS LIFE...I WILL ALWAYS STAND BY HIM NO MATTER WAT HIS CHOICES ARE...
SO ANYWAY,I CANT LIKE BEIN BURNT LOL IT HURTS LIKE A SUMBIOTCH...I FEEL FER ADE CUZ HE HAS TO BE OUT IN THE SUN AND THE HEAT AND THAT DONT FEEL GOOD ON THE SKIN AT ALL...IT HURTS TO DO EVERYTHING NO MATTER WAT IT IS....I CANT EVEN SIT WITH OUT IT HURTIN LOL...WELL ALRIGHT THEN I RECON I BETTER GET MUH AZZ MOVEN ER SUM THEN LOL...
C-YA~
I JUST SIT AND WONDER WAT IF WE NEVER WOULD HAVE MET THEN HE WOULD STILL HAVE TYLER...MAYBE THIS IS ALL MUH FUALT FER THE WAY HE IS FEELIN...THEN I SAID THAT TO HIM AND HE SAID TO ME ME BEIN UNHAPPY WAS NOT YER FUALT...I DONT KNOW IF IT WASNT FER ME HE WOULD STILL HAVE THAT LIL BOY TO HOLD AT NITE AND PLAY WITH AND HUG AND TELL HIM I LOVE YOU...MAYBE I AM A HOME WRECKER =0(...I JUST WANT ADE TO BE HAPPY AND PUT A REAL SMILE ON HIS FACE AND NOT JUST MAKE ME THINK EVERYTHING IS OK...EVERYTHING WITH ADE AND I ARE GREAT I WAS MEANIN HIM AND TYLER...WELL I GUESS I BETTER JUST LIVE IT ALONE AND LET THEM FIGURE IT OUT AINT MUH PLACE TO SAY NOTHIN REALLY...I JUST WISH THEY COULD BOTH PUT THERE PROBS THEY HAD TOGTHER ASIDE,AND GIVE TYLER THE CHANCE TO SAY HOW HE FEELS AND WAT HE WANTS...YA HE IS 4 GUNNA BE 5,BUT THAT DONT MEAN HE DONT KNOW WAT HE WANTS CUZ HE DOES...THEY BOTH NEED TO SIT DOWN WITH TYLER AND EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT THINGS HAVE CHANGED AND THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT...THATS MUH OPION BUT HEY WAT DO I KNOW NOT MUCH CUZ IF I DID I WOULD HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS,BUT GUESS WAT I DONT...I LOVE ADE WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE AND WOULD NEVER GIVE UP ON HIM OR THE THINGS HE WANTS AND LOVES IN HIS LIFE...I WILL ALWAYS STAND BY HIM NO MATTER WAT HIS CHOICES ARE...
SO ANYWAY,I CANT LIKE BEIN BURNT LOL IT HURTS LIKE A SUMBIOTCH...I FEEL FER ADE CUZ HE HAS TO BE OUT IN THE SUN AND THE HEAT AND THAT DONT FEEL GOOD ON THE SKIN AT ALL...IT HURTS TO DO EVERYTHING NO MATTER WAT IT IS....I CANT EVEN SIT WITH OUT IT HURTIN LOL...WELL ALRIGHT THEN I RECON I BETTER GET MUH AZZ MOVEN ER SUM THEN LOL...
C-YA~