2008
I actually wrote a full entry which listed things from the year but I decided I didn't want to post it.
This starts sounding depressed, which I'm not and then gets happy so don't be too put off.
2008 has been a huge year for me. It has probably been one of my most chalenging years. I first want to apologize to everyone for what I see as my steem roler approach. So much of this year I've felt like I was just barging my way into places and ruining things and I couldn't find the breaks even though I could see the distruction. Whether or not you guys felt like that I'm not sure but I'm sorry I really haven't been a good friend most of this year, I've taken more than I've given and in truth that's probably because I felt, many times, that I had nothing to offer. To everyone who has stuck by me this year I thank you.
I have certainly cried more in this year than probably in all previous years of my life put together, maybe excluding the first six months of my existance. I have learned that delaying things makes them a lot worse and that sometimes a good cry in the beginning is much better than waiting ten months and having everything build up. I am still learning to deal with my brother's serious relationship which has forced me to take a good hard look at myself and deal with some of my personal insecurities and prejudices. I have learned that I need to be more patient with others, Bonny and myself. I am so glad that Andrew didn't completely listen to me when I practically begged him to take Bonny back.
But the year has also had many good things for me! I have made a lot of new friends and gotten to know some older ones better. I have grown closer to God. I have gotten more interested in sport and it has been a great outlet. I have gained independents and confidence and a lot of new skills which I'm sure will prove very useful in the years to come. I have learned that laughter really is the best medicine and there is so much reason to smile and laugh. I have learned that skipping is fun! I have learned that sometimes it doesn't take much to make a persons whole day. I've learned that it's okay not to be perfect.
Next year is the most uncertain of my life thus far. I think that I will have a lot to write this time next year about what has happened over the course of the twelve months. I may have shared some of these with some of you but I don't think I will write them in here, I'm sure it will be obvious if they come to pass. Next year is going to be huge. I am nervous but also excited!
But for now I just want to thank everyone again for making 2008 awesome!
huuuuge hugs
until next year.
This starts sounding depressed, which I'm not and then gets happy so don't be too put off.
2008 has been a huge year for me. It has probably been one of my most chalenging years. I first want to apologize to everyone for what I see as my steem roler approach. So much of this year I've felt like I was just barging my way into places and ruining things and I couldn't find the breaks even though I could see the distruction. Whether or not you guys felt like that I'm not sure but I'm sorry I really haven't been a good friend most of this year, I've taken more than I've given and in truth that's probably because I felt, many times, that I had nothing to offer. To everyone who has stuck by me this year I thank you.
I have certainly cried more in this year than probably in all previous years of my life put together, maybe excluding the first six months of my existance. I have learned that delaying things makes them a lot worse and that sometimes a good cry in the beginning is much better than waiting ten months and having everything build up. I am still learning to deal with my brother's serious relationship which has forced me to take a good hard look at myself and deal with some of my personal insecurities and prejudices. I have learned that I need to be more patient with others, Bonny and myself. I am so glad that Andrew didn't completely listen to me when I practically begged him to take Bonny back.
But the year has also had many good things for me! I have made a lot of new friends and gotten to know some older ones better. I have grown closer to God. I have gotten more interested in sport and it has been a great outlet. I have gained independents and confidence and a lot of new skills which I'm sure will prove very useful in the years to come. I have learned that laughter really is the best medicine and there is so much reason to smile and laugh. I have learned that skipping is fun! I have learned that sometimes it doesn't take much to make a persons whole day. I've learned that it's okay not to be perfect.
Next year is the most uncertain of my life thus far. I think that I will have a lot to write this time next year about what has happened over the course of the twelve months. I may have shared some of these with some of you but I don't think I will write them in here, I'm sure it will be obvious if they come to pass. Next year is going to be huge. I am nervous but also excited!
But for now I just want to thank everyone again for making 2008 awesome!
huuuuge hugs
until next year.