We have kitty! >^-^

Oct 08, 2009 11:09

Tentative.

I went through this cycle. You were unseated for him. He was unseated for me...then he and I flipped power a couple of times and now it's You. It's You, it's You, everything is You. And I don't know how I could have ever been so foolish. Saying no to You? I know exactly when I did it. And I know that in that way, everything is my fault.

I feel so small. The word "pipsqueak" comes to mind. I don't know how to make friends. I feel like I don't have anything to offer people. ...on the flip side, in so many ways I'm more confident and outspoken than I've ever been before.

I don't know. My head is stuffed full of mashed potatoes so I can't find anything. I know there are shiny metal bits! They're just lost in the squishiness. Add some heat and it becomes aromatic, but taking the microwave shortcut makes the metal spark and set things ablaze.

I've been captured by Your love and Your longing to touch me and heal me. I crave an all-consuming love that will transform me completely. You are the great healer. I know because I talk of bitterness and rage; I talk of depression; I talk about an inability to love and trust...and I know that these have been my reality. I have lived in these places, some for very, very long periods of time, but for the life of me I cannot imagine them fully. Your love is rushing through me and it doesn't leave space for unforgiveness and walls to "protect" myself.

gushes, god, blather

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