Looking up
First: Happy Valentine's Day! Even if you don't have a "significant other", there are many kinds of love, and they are all gifts--I hope you are able to appreciate and celebrate some of them today. <3
Second: I knew yesterday, even as I felt like I was at the bottom of a deep hole, that today would be better somehow. And it is! The sun is out, I at least got an explanatory email from Pennie.com so I know what's going on with my original health insurance application--I mean, they want paperwork that I can't submit because it wouldn't be accurate (since my current paycheck doesn't reflect what I will be making after March), but just knowing why I got the "ineligible" brick wall makes a huge difference mentally. And I went over to ehealth.com and was able to find what looks like a decent plan that I can afford (with a bit of pinching, but definitely manageable short-term, which is I HOPE all this is), which only needs my COBRA form for confirmation. Which I have! And can supply! So I'm going to sleep on that, and then do a little more research over the next day or two (how easy is to find a doctor that will take this insurance, etc.) and then probably sign on the dotted line by the end of the week.
It's still a crappy process, but it's back down to standard crappy and not "I'm just done with everything" crappy. Sleep also helped, for sure! Going to be making a solid effort to go to be in bed, lights out by ~10PM for a couple weeks. Maybe I'll even manage to make it a long-term thing, because goodness does everything feel less horrible when you're not exhausted all the time!
Second: I knew yesterday, even as I felt like I was at the bottom of a deep hole, that today would be better somehow. And it is! The sun is out, I at least got an explanatory email from Pennie.com so I know what's going on with my original health insurance application--I mean, they want paperwork that I can't submit because it wouldn't be accurate (since my current paycheck doesn't reflect what I will be making after March), but just knowing why I got the "ineligible" brick wall makes a huge difference mentally. And I went over to ehealth.com and was able to find what looks like a decent plan that I can afford (with a bit of pinching, but definitely manageable short-term, which is I HOPE all this is), which only needs my COBRA form for confirmation. Which I have! And can supply! So I'm going to sleep on that, and then do a little more research over the next day or two (how easy is to find a doctor that will take this insurance, etc.) and then probably sign on the dotted line by the end of the week.
It's still a crappy process, but it's back down to standard crappy and not "I'm just done with everything" crappy. Sleep also helped, for sure! Going to be making a solid effort to go to be in bed, lights out by ~10PM for a couple weeks. Maybe I'll even manage to make it a long-term thing, because goodness does everything feel less horrible when you're not exhausted all the time!